Category Archives: Spirit

Listening Deeply Within

Posted on February 5, 2022 by jenny

from my journal for Friday, February 4 Just meditated for about half an hour.  Tried to hineinhorchen, to listen within.  Asked Inner Teacher for help.  Paid attention to the sound of snow blower.  Reminded of planes.  “God comes disguised as our … Continue reading →

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Inner Teacher

Posted on January 30, 2022 by jenny

I’ve been having a bad time. This morning I woke up feeling utterly bleak. I recite all sorts of meaningless phrases. “Great Beings, have mercy on me.” “May all beings be held in lovingkindness.” It doesn’t help. I can’t manage … Continue reading →

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Steps on the Way to Neskaya

Posted on January 24, 2022 by jenny

Imbolc is the Cross-Quarter Day, also called Candlemas. February 2, 1992     Imbolc I went to folk dance yesterday, it was very hard getting myself there, and the tapes and tape deck and cauldron and candles.  Driving out the … Continue reading →

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Beginnings of Neskaya

Posted on January 24, 2022 by jenny

Some of my dancers are doing a project about the history of Neskaya, and wanted more information.  So I went back in my journal, looking for the first mention and some history about how the process happened. October 14, 1991  … Continue reading →

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Seeing that I am Still Connected

Posted on December 26, 2021 by jenny

I worked on this blog post on November 6, but didn’t publish it.  Reading it over, I think it expresses very well exactly where I was. From my journal for Monday, November 1 Headache.  Feeling a little bleak.     … Continue reading →

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Words to Help me Keep on Keeping On

Posted on December 25, 2021 by jenny

This was first posted in July 2016. I’m needing them badly again. Between the holidays and COVID getting worse again, I’m looking at a difficult week. I won’t talk with Erica until January, I’m without her for two weeks. Grief … Continue reading →

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Write My Way Down to a Truth

Posted on November 5, 2021 by jenny

Thursday, November 4 Yesterday was an odd day. It felt disjointed somehow, things did not go smoothly or naturally. I think I kept want to “write my way down to a truth” and not getting to it until finally, just before 3:00 … Continue reading →

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My Wounded Part Needs to be Held, not Healed

Posted on November 4, 2021 by jenny

This is from the Richard Rohr daily meditation for May 3, 2021. The writer is a Vietnam Vet. I suffer from a disturbed sleep pattern that has been a part of my life since a nighttime attack in Vietnam in … Continue reading →

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Inner Teacher

Posted on October 23, 2021 by jenny

I stopped writing to my “Guides and Guardian Spirits” to ask for help, because at one point they suggested making a loan to someone who wasn’t really trustworthy.  This is something I’m very vulnerable to because of my childhood training … Continue reading →

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“Priestess of Neskaya”

Posted on September 25, 2021 by jenny

It feels very scary to call a part of myself “Priestess of Neskaya.” But I think if I were living out of my True Self, that’s who would be manifesting. This blog piece attempts to document a process toward integration … Continue reading →

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