Category Archives: Present Day

“Priestess of Neskaya”

It feels very scary to call a part of myself “Priestess of Neskaya.” But I think if I were living out of my True Self, that’s who would be manifesting. This blog piece attempts to document a process toward integration … Continue reading

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Feeling Compassion for Myself

One of my constant struggles is to find compassion for myself.  Most of the time I’m angry at myself and hating myself for being such a failure.  I’ve treated myself worse than any other human being. From my journal for … Continue reading

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I Choose to Trust…

There are many times when I am unable to trust that there is goodness in the universe. But I can still CHOOSE to trust, set an intention. I found Richard Rohr’s daily meditation for August 6 very helpful. Some quotes: … Continue reading

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Trapped in Stone

Tuesday, July 13 Work with Erica was experiential, she asked me to not write during the session.  Passages in italics are from my journal: An intense session with Erica.  She managed to get me out of being trapped in rock.  … Continue reading

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Working with Scared One

from journal for Monday, August 2 Yesterday was pretty miserable. I realize that in some ways the misery of the day matched the metaphor of being trapped in stone. Trapped in a narrow point of view. Unable to imagine anything bigger. I started … Continue reading

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Working with “Stuck Heart”

from my journal for Friday, July 30 Woke at 5.  Intense heat.  Some fear, but mostly stuck heart.  Feeling desperately discouraged, unable to tune in or figure out what is going on with my heart.  Unable to get any compassion … Continue reading

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Order — Disorder — Reorder

This is from Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation for today, July 25 Living in a transitional age such as ours is scary: things are falling apart, the future is unknowable, so much doesn’t cohere or make sense. We can’t seem to … Continue reading

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Blow by Blow Description of Work with “Parts”

This is an attempt to illustrate what my work with parts is like.  I wrote in my journal exactly what was going on, when it was happening. Sunday, July 18 I think if I can’t do anything else, maybe I … Continue reading

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Rescuing Young Parts

My therapist and I are working with Richard Schwartz’s ideas, developed over the last 20 years as Internal Family Systems.  Instead of being able to deal with parts who can talk individually, I get flooded by parts who are desperate … Continue reading

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Dawnland and The Gatherings

Early in January, Hanover Friends Meeting hosted a talk by Bruce Duthu about the Truth and Reconciliation Commission in Maine.  The TRC was intended to uncover the truth about child-welfare practice with Maine’s Native people.  They wanted to create opportunities … Continue reading

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