Category Archives: Present Day

Talk with Youngest Part

At least I think/feel it’s the youngest. She can’t talk so I have to sense her feelings. I was reading James Hollis’s book What Matters Most, and got to the part where he talks about doing what your soul wants … Continue reading

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Trauma Survivors have Difficulty Experiencing Love

This is from Gretchen Schmelzer’s blog: For those of you who have been hurt or who grew up with trauma you may know the word love, but you may not understand what it means. Or maybe you understand what it … Continue reading

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Help from Inner Teacher

Written today. Looking back, I see that I’ve only written one post about the knee pain. Reading it reminds me that my early trauma can trigger me into feeling more helpless than I am. After one week of feeling considerably … Continue reading

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Victim Story

I read a piece on the CAC’s Daily Meditation.  It’s about the story of victimization.  Of course, a lot of people have had their lives made more difficult by various conditions, poverty, race, gender, etc. I see that the problem … Continue reading

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Confusing, Difficult Time

I’ve been having a really hard confusing time. Excerpts from some relevant journal entries: Friday, January 26   … this odd realization.  Something to do with if God is in everything, then I “am” God, if god feels my pain then … Continue reading

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Help from Inner Teacher

Dear Inner Teacher, I’m feeling lost, confused, disconnected, uncomfortable, irritable.  I really need some help! Dear Jenny, relax.  Your meditation of imagining a prostration on the out breath, of emptying your self, or demonstrating “Thy will be done” — with … Continue reading

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Self-pity, Anger, Compassion, Gratitude

This morning as I walked Mocha in the bitter cold, my knee aching, she turned back very quickly, and pulled, which I find so difficult.  I started feeling sorry for myself, then I got angry at myself for self-pity, then … Continue reading

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Early Trauma and Knee Pain

This blog is about living with PTSD, so what’s the point of writing about my sore knee?  I did a post about it on December 27, but then I thought it wasn’t directly relevant. It turns out that I am … Continue reading

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The Within of the Web…

I’ve been rereading The Phenomenon of Man, because it was very important to me a while back. I don’t list it in the Bibliography of The Feminine of History is Mystery, but I can see its influence in the passage … Continue reading

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The Dance of Hope

This was today’s post from the Center for Action and Contemplation. It interested me because he talks about a circle dance and the Ghost Dance. My understanding is that the “Ghost Dance” was intended to call the ancestors. In our … Continue reading

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