Category Archives: Present Day

Winter Solstice

These readings came my way. Susan Cooper, The Shortest Day (Written for the Christmas Revels) So the shortest day came and the year died And everywhere down the centuries of the snow white world Came people singing, dancing, to drive … Continue reading

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Something Totally New

I’ve been reading Thomas Zinser’s book Soul-Centered Healing.  While I drank my coffee and read the Chapter called The Quickening, Mocha started squeaking.  I was determined to finish my coffee and the Chapter before I took her out, but her … Continue reading

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Soul Medicine

from my journal for Wednesday, December 9 The talk with Erica turned everything around again.  My energy was so much better for the rest of the day.  My life has not been a chore, but a battle.  A battle against … Continue reading

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Defeated by Greater and Greater Beings

First there was trauma, followed by PTSD, before my brain and nervous system matured. Then lack of mirroring and mis-representation by a narcissistic mother. Then the usual damage by Alcoholic parents. Then being a Highly Sensitive Person in a toxic … Continue reading

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Do the failures matter?

I’ve actually been feeling better since I acknowledged that I’m too tired to do much of anything, and stopped making myself wrong for not getting things done.  Stopped pushing myself. from my journal Wednesday, November 25 Another amazing talk with … Continue reading

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What I learned from the Retreat

This was written the day after the final day of the Courage and Renewal Retreat. Normally, when I post things I’ve written in my journal, I either edit them, or add material to explain some of the references.  Today I’m … Continue reading

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Persephone, revisited

from journal for Saturday, November 21 This was the second full day of the Courage & Renewal Retreat described in an earlier post: We were told to wander around outside or inside your space, find things that are beautiful, find … Continue reading

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Despair

From my journal for Friday, November 20 I wish I didn’t wake up in the morning feeling so tired and discouraged and meaningless.  “May all beings be held in lovingkindness.”  But I have no sense of love, or kindness, or … Continue reading

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Losing Ground

I’ve been losing ground since I first stopped changing the hangings at Neskaya eight times a year, for the holidays of the Ancient Nature Religion of Western Europe.  I didn’t even notice when that began to happen, I guess I … Continue reading

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Major Trigger

I usually type up my journal about one month later.  It often gives me some perspective that I didn’t have when I wrote it.  Recently I typed up this: from October 14 The part of me that’s behind my inability … Continue reading

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