Category Archives: Present Day

Inner Teacher

I’ve been having a really hard time. We have a few COVID cases among the staff, so things have closed down a little. I think they are realizing that we are suffering from lack of connection, so they are not … Continue reading

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That Twilight Feeling, reprise

These two messages arrived at the end of the year. They speak to exactly how I’m feeling, which is very lonely, very sad, a sense that there is no meaning to my life, a kind of end-of-life version of That … Continue reading

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Accept that this is the Reality of Who I am?

I first heard about Claude Anshin Thomas in one of Richard Rohr’s daily meditations. He’s a Vietnam Vet who suffered from flashbacks that keep him from sleeping more than a couple of hours at a time.  He talks about realizing … Continue reading

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Seeing that I am Still Connected

I worked on this blog post on November 6, but didn’t publish it.  Reading it over, I think it expresses very well exactly where I was. From my journal for Monday, November 1 Headache.  Feeling a little bleak.     … Continue reading

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Empty Cold Place

from my journal for October 24 2021 Checking email, I saw something about how corporate interests are acting against the freedom of the internet.  I could feel the “bad guys” closing in, and it reminded me of Etty Hillesum as … Continue reading

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Horrible Day

I haven’t posted anything new to this blog since November 5.  I’ve been having a very hard time, partly due to struggling with a dead battery in my car, which first looked like it was problem with the electrical system. … Continue reading

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Write My Way Down to a Truth

Thursday, November 4 Yesterday was an odd day. It felt disjointed somehow, things did not go smoothly or naturally. I think I kept want to “write my way down to a truth” and not getting to it until finally, just before 3:00 … Continue reading

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My Wounded Part Needs to be Held, not Healed

This is from the Richard Rohr daily meditation for May 3, 2021. The writer is a Vietnam Vet. I suffer from a disturbed sleep pattern that has been a part of my life since a nighttime attack in Vietnam in … Continue reading

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Relational Trauma

From Matt Licata’s blog: The tragedy of relational trauma presents itself as a cellular fragmenting, more primordial than a mere cognitive dissonance, neurally-encoded and rooted in the soul. In addition to the chronic empathic failure and narcissistic injury which goes … Continue reading

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Inner Teacher

I stopped writing to my “Guides and Guardian Spirits” to ask for help, because at one point they suggested making a loan to someone who wasn’t really trustworthy.  This is something I’m very vulnerable to because of my childhood training … Continue reading

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