Monthly Archives: September 2011

Need I Say More?

Occupy Wall Street grows up Let’s do something about climate change Moving Planet

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Elizabeth Warren: “You built a factory out there? Good for you. But I want to be clear: you moved your goods to market on the roads the rest of us paid for; you hired workers the rest of us paid … Continue reading

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“Demoralization Box”

For the last couple of months I’ve been struggling with “lost the will to live” — the last stage of trauma when the organism has concluded that death is inevitable.  Sometimes I’m OK with it, sometimes it’s really hard.  I’m … Continue reading

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(Written in October 2006) I’m feeling a bit scattered.  I’m thinking one thing I could do is make a drawing of my life — the pieces that are scattered — and then what is the center around which they could … Continue reading

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Being with the Baby

(Written in June 2004) Told Karen about being the baby — then about feelings of resistance and disgust to the idea of taking care of myself.  She said it was OK to have those feelings.  We explored the reality — … Continue reading

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Don’t Want to Live

(Written in June 2004) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m having a pretty bad time.  I wanted to die this morning — I’m just sick & tired of being Jenny — she’s too much burden and not enough reward.  Please … Continue reading

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Tough Day

(Written in June 2004) Rough day yesterday.  A lot of fear & sense of alienation from my life.  A beautiful day but I wasn’t really present to it, etc.  A lot of pain about the ecological crisis, letter from Barbara … Continue reading

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Wanting to Live my “Big Life”

(Written in October 2003) I’m scared again, scared that I will never come out of this.  Yesterday I could see that I’m being able to talk about what’s going on for me and to ask for help — I think … Continue reading

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(Written in October 2003) Dream: we’re all in a car coming up Park Road, Daddy driving.  He goes past the driveway & we tell him & he complains that we should have made sounds when he got to the mailbox … Continue reading

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Too Hard

(Written in October 2003) I can’t do this.  It’s just too hard.  I did the bank deposit & went downtown, shopped, got mail — all with my heart like a stone, body frozen in fear.  Put on Oratorium, collapsed on … Continue reading

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