Monthly Archives: September 2011

Need I Say More?

Posted on September 30, 2011 by jenny

Occupy Wall Street grows up Let’s do something about climate change Moving Planet

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Elizabeth Warren: “You built a factory out there? Good for you. But I want to be clear: you moved your goods to market on the roads the rest of us paid for; you hired workers the rest of us paid … Continue reading →

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“Demoralization Box”

Posted on September 26, 2011 by jenny

For the last couple of months I’ve been struggling with “lost the will to live” — the last stage of trauma when the organism has concluded that death is inevitable. Sometimes I’m OK with it, sometimes it’s really hard. I’m … Continue reading →

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Intention

Posted on September 25, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2006) I’m feeling a bit scattered. I’m thinking one thing I could do is make a drawing of my life — the pieces that are scattered — and then what is the center around which they could … Continue reading →

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Being with the Baby

Posted on September 24, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) Told Karen about being the baby — then about feelings of resistance and disgust to the idea of taking care of myself. She said it was OK to have those feelings. We explored the reality — … Continue reading →

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Don’t Want to Live

Posted on September 23, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m having a pretty bad time. I wanted to die this morning — I’m just sick & tired of being Jenny — she’s too much burden and not enough reward. Please … Continue reading →

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Tough Day

Posted on September 22, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) Rough day yesterday. A lot of fear & sense of alienation from my life. A beautiful day but I wasn’t really present to it, etc. A lot of pain about the ecological crisis, letter from Barbara … Continue reading →

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Wanting to Live my “Big Life”

Posted on September 16, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) I’m scared again, scared that I will never come out of this. Yesterday I could see that I’m being able to talk about what’s going on for me and to ask for help — I think … Continue reading →

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Compassion

Posted on September 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Dream: we’re all in a car coming up Park Road, Daddy driving. He goes past the driveway & we tell him & he complains that we should have made sounds when he got to the mailbox … Continue reading →

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Too Hard

Posted on September 14, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) I can’t do this. It’s just too hard. I did the bank deposit & went downtown, shopped, got mail — all with my heart like a stone, body frozen in fear. Put on Oratorium, collapsed on … Continue reading →

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