Monthly Archives: October 2023

1995: Practice of “Being With”

Posted on October 31, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for November 25, 1995 The truth is that my ability to express my creativity is very fragile, needs a lot of support and safety and no expectations. This is very painful because at the same time I … Continue reading →

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1995: Sullen Angry 8-yr-old

Posted on October 30, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for November 28, 1995 Well, let’s see if she is here, that sullen angry hurt child. I have a hit of her age as being 8 or 9, and of Mother as a hurt angry sullen child … Continue reading →

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Obstreperous Child

Posted on October 29, 2023 by jenny

The Daily Good today (10/22/23) was an essay by Francis Weller on grief. When I first heard about his work from my therapist, I went to a retreat on the west coast. But I have been struggling with a lot … Continue reading →

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“I gave my life energy to sacred meaning”

Posted on October 25, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for October 18 Feeling weird. Woke up feeling weird. Not sure I can describe it. I don’t think I have a fever, I found my thermometer, but will have to wait, because I already had a drink. At the thought … Continue reading →

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Help from Inner Teacher

Posted on October 22, 2023 by jenny

Written on Sunday, October 22 Dear Inner Teacher, I’m feeling very lost, my brain is sluggish. I desperately need help. Dear Jenny, know that many spirits love you. If you can’t do anything practical except the minimum — feeding yourself … Continue reading →

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“to reteach a thing its loveliness…”

Posted on October 18, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group on Monday, October 17: Met Gwen & Sandra near the stairs — said I was having a hard time. They both hugged me, asked if I felt loved. I said yes. Won’t you look down upon … Continue reading →

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“This time it’s all of us or none”

Posted on October 13, 2023 by jenny

Puerto Rican Jewish poet and activist Aurora Levins Morales poem “Red Sea”: We cannot cross until we carry each other, all of us refugees, all of us prophets. No more taking turns on history’s wheel, trying to collect old debts … Continue reading →

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1995: Struggle to Find Compassion for Myself

Posted on October 12, 2023 by jenny

November 24, 1995 I’m sitting outside the Dojo in Montpelier while Dana teaches class. I came with him because I wanted to go to the Psychodrama performance “Surviving through the Night.” Someone gave me the flyer when we had the … Continue reading →

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1995: Trying to Pretend I’m “Normal”

Posted on October 11, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for November 21, 1995 No headache this morning, just the despair. The headache would have been manageable without the despair, I’ve lived through worse, but last night the two together were too much. I see that the … Continue reading →

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1995: “Holding the Space”

Posted on October 10, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for November 30, 1995 Eleanor said yesterday that she could feel me “holding the space” at Hart’s and she thanked me for the amount of energy I was pouring out in her direction. It surprised me, because … Continue reading →

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