Monthly Archives: June 2023

From 1994-5: Numerology

Posted on June 25, 2023 by jenny

from my journal for December 1994 I’ve been wanting to write about the information in the Numerology books — recommended by a friend, I ordered them for Dana and wrapped them for Christmas.  Looking them over, I see that Numerology … Continue reading →

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Trying to “Surrender” Doesn’t Work

Posted on June 23, 2023 by jenny

This should have been posted right after my description of following Tosha Silver’s process, which I called The Real Universe. But I didn’t know what to say after saying that my attempts were “horribly unsuccessful.” Then I got distracted by … Continue reading →

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Dialogue between Wounded and Feisty

Posted on June 23, 2023 by jenny

from my journal for Thursday, June 22 Dear Inner Teacher, I desperately need some help. Dear Jenny, you are so hard on yourself.  You are harder on yourself than you are on anyone else.  And you judge yourself without mercy.  … Continue reading →

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What’s Holding Me Back?

Posted on June 22, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for Monday, June 19 I tried to talk to the part that’s making me so scared.  I got little bits of dialogue before I actually sat down to write it. Me:  how old are you? Part:  Twelve … Continue reading →

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Crashed and Burned

Posted on June 21, 2023 by jenny

This feels a lot like the previous post.  The text is taken from the post “Trying to Integrate the Past” posted on February 16, 2017 Thursday, January 5, 2017 Feeling a little cranky, angry? unhappy?  No, I think there’s anger … Continue reading →

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Confused and Miserable

Posted on June 20, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group last night: I’ve been so confused.  Feeling miserable.  Can’t identify feelings.  I’ve been at cross-purposes with Mocha.  I wanted to go over to Rivercrest and she did her thing of crouching and pulling back.  So we … Continue reading →

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Forgiveness

Posted on June 17, 2023 by jenny

I have been reading Christina Baldwin’s book called Life’s Companion; Journal Writing as a Spiritual Quest.  In the chapter on Forgiveness she describes what happens to people who refuse to forgive, and what happens to people who are not forgiven.  I … Continue reading →

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Not up to the Magnitude of the Pain

Posted on June 14, 2023 by jenny

My sweet companion Mocha has been diagnosed with a condition that will ultimately paralyze her back legs. I am overwhelmed with pain and grief. I am not being able to carry this pain with joy. “Let go of any bitterness … Continue reading →

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The Real Universe

Posted on June 5, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for June 3, 1996, and posted in May 2010: But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how it matches my … Continue reading →

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Working to remember “My Prayer”

Posted on June 1, 2023 by jenny

This morning I woke up feeling utterly unloved and hopeless, in a world where there is no spirit.  The song in my head is “Diamonds and Rust,” Joan Baez’s amazing song about her love affair with Bob Dylan.  I listened … Continue reading →

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