Monthly Archives: May 2015

More Old Journal Writing

Posted on May 25, 2015 by jenny

This is from my journal written in July 1968.  I was living with a guy because I was so desperate not to be alone.  The use of lower-case letters for “I”, the Roman numerals, the names of the days were … Continue reading →

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Self-hate Poem from 1967

Posted on May 22, 2015 by jenny

I wrote this when I was 25.  I look back at my life from this place of feeling so much better — though it’s also extremely unfamiliar — and see how much pain I was in.  The constant criticism of … Continue reading →

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My Life Has Meaning

Posted on May 21, 2015 by jenny

I can’t remember the session with Erica well enough to write.  I did most of the talking — talking very fast, getting lost in stories and forgetting the point.  I don’t even remember what I was trying to tell her.  … Continue reading →

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In Transition

Posted on May 17, 2015 by jenny

Thursday Told Karen about waking up feeling not quite myself, unfamiliar, on two days. Yesterday morning I realized I am in transition — letting go of the old trapeze, new one not yet visible in the fog.  Karen said that’s … Continue reading →

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Journal Writing

Posted on May 10, 2015 by jenny

I posted the piece on the Red Woman yesterday.  I realize that though I’ve talked about her in my blog, I’ve never told the whole story.  I quote from my journal entry, in 1989, about her first appearance.  Setting it … Continue reading →

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Red Woman

Posted on May 8, 2015 by jenny

I’ve written about the “Red Woman” many times, she’s described in the page about my paintings, but I’ve never actually told the full story. Kripalu for Women & Yoga Written October 31, 1989 During body work with Debra, I was … Continue reading →

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Confusion

Posted on May 6, 2015 by jenny

Woke up feeling uncomfortable.  Not depressed, not scared, not contented.  Not satisfied.  I think I was really confused by what Erica said.  We were talking about me starting a women’s writing/support group.  I told her about my conversation with Yvette, … Continue reading →

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