Monthly Archives: July 2019

3rd Cup of Tea

This 3rd cup writing illustrates another principle I use in my life:  I take a lot of things that happen as signs from the universe or spirit or whoever.  For example, if I’m thinking something particular and a bird lands … Continue reading

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About 3rd Cup of Tea Writing

My usual morning routine is to make a cup of tea, write while drinking it, make a second and do the same.  Then I usually have a smoothie with fiber in it, feed the dog, get dressed, make my own … Continue reading

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Trying to Figure out WHY I Got So Terrified

Excerpts from my journal trying to understand about the terrified feeling, what triggered it, why it seemed different from how it has happened before.  The last time I felt that kind of terror was when I flew to California for … Continue reading

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Two Whole Weeks of Terror, February 1971

from my journal.  entries are undated.  A lot of this is in a post from January 2016 how calmly does the olive branch observe the sky begin to blanch without a cry, without a prayer with no betrayal of despair…  … Continue reading

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Today’s 3rd Cup of Tea

Maybe the feeling of abandonment was more intense because Dulany has become a good friend.  Erica pointed out that my relationship with Eleanor is problematic because she triggered the big sister’s need to take care of younger siblings, and she … Continue reading

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Guidance

Saturday, July 20 Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I am having a very hard time.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, your fear has been triggered and you are very much in a baby state.  You are feeling pretty completely helpless.  … Continue reading

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3rd Cup of Tea Writing, Today

Sunday, July 21 3rd cup of tea: I am feeling terror and despair.  I am feeling the feelings of all the challenged beings, children separated from their parents, people held in jail who can’t post bail, people wrongly defrauded of … Continue reading

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Badly Triggered

from my journal for 6/21 In the evening I watched a talk on Healing Trauma by Thomas Hübl.  He is Austrian, and a mystic and spiritual teacher.  He talked about collective trauma and what was needed to heal it — … Continue reading

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“A time when you didn’t even guess that you were happy…”

I have been happy for days.  Something so unusual I can remember the times it happened in the past.  Winter Solstice at Stanstead.  Driving back from the first session of Writers for Recovery.  Seeing the chickadees coming to the feeder … Continue reading

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Tong-len for the Earth

from my journal for early June.  It’s very strange, I typed it into the computer just as it is here.  I put it under June 6, but in the handwritten notebook it’s not there.  I looked through both earlier and … Continue reading

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