Monthly Archives: July 2019

3rd Cup of Tea

Posted on July 31, 2019 by jenny

This 3rd cup writing illustrates another principle I use in my life:  I take a lot of things that happen as signs from the universe or spirit or whoever.  For example, if I’m thinking something particular and a bird lands … Continue reading →

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About 3rd Cup of Tea Writing

Posted on July 29, 2019 by jenny

My usual morning routine is to make a cup of tea, write while drinking it, make a second and do the same.  Then I usually have a smoothie with fiber in it, feed the dog, get dressed, make my own … Continue reading →

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Trying to Figure out WHY I Got So Terrified

Posted on July 26, 2019 by jenny

Excerpts from my journal trying to understand about the terrified feeling, what triggered it, why it seemed different from how it has happened before.  The last time I felt that kind of terror was when I flew to California for … Continue reading →

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Two Whole Weeks of Terror, February 1971

Posted on July 25, 2019 by jenny

from my journal.  entries are undated.  A lot of this is in a post from January 2016 how calmly does the olive branch observe the sky begin to blanch without a cry, without a prayer with no betrayal of despair…  … Continue reading →

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Today’s 3rd Cup of Tea

Posted on July 24, 2019 by jenny

Maybe the feeling of abandonment was more intense because Dulany has become a good friend.  Erica pointed out that my relationship with Eleanor is problematic because she triggered the big sister’s need to take care of younger siblings, and she … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on July 22, 2019 by jenny

Saturday, July 20 Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I am having a very hard time.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, your fear has been triggered and you are very much in a baby state.  You are feeling pretty completely helpless.  … Continue reading →

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3rd Cup of Tea Writing, Today

Posted on July 21, 2019 by jenny

Sunday, July 21 3rd cup of tea: I am feeling terror and despair.  I am feeling the feelings of all the challenged beings, children separated from their parents, people held in jail who can’t post bail, people wrongly defrauded of … Continue reading →

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Badly Triggered

Posted on July 21, 2019 by jenny

from my journal for 6/21 In the evening I watched a talk on Healing Trauma by Thomas Hübl.  He is Austrian, and a mystic and spiritual teacher.  He talked about collective trauma and what was needed to heal it — … Continue reading →

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“A time when you didn’t even guess that you were happy…”

Posted on July 8, 2019 by jenny

I have been happy for days.  Something so unusual I can remember the times it happened in the past.  Winter Solstice at Stanstead.  Driving back from the first session of Writers for Recovery.  Seeing the chickadees coming to the feeder … Continue reading →

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Tong-len for the Earth

Posted on July 7, 2019 by jenny

from my journal for early June.  It’s very strange, I typed it into the computer just as it is here.  I put it under June 6, but in the handwritten notebook it’s not there.  I looked through both earlier and … Continue reading →

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