Monthly Archives: January 2016

The Core of Trauma

This last week has been really tough.  On Tuesday I had the hardest, most painful therapy session that I’ve ever experienced.  Before I drove down I wrote: Damn!  I’m starting to feel scared.  Part of it may be that there’s … Continue reading

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Living with PTSD

Erica suggested I take one of my affirmations/realizations and write from it.  I chose “Depression is a big deal.  It has taken courage, strength and determination to create as much of a life as I have.”  I became aware of … Continue reading

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Frozen Terror

from my journal for February 1971.  I was living in a big house in Portland Maine with my sister.  I was 29 years old and had left California after a breakdown and all I wanted to do was hide.  I had … Continue reading

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I feel like I’m at the end.  I have no energy to fight this depression with.  Well that’s not totally true.  I got out of bed.  I did my breakfast routine.  I went to Father Greg on YouTube hoping he … Continue reading

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End of 2015 Thoughts

Journal for Thursday, December 31 On my notepad “suffering is from resistance to what is.”  I’m sitting on the couch with the dog next to me.  Snow outside covering the grounds and on branches.  It’s close to freezing, feels damp … Continue reading

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