Category Archives: Vocation

From 1988: Fantasy? Prophesy?

When I read this in my journal, as we struggle with the COVID-19 pandemic, I wonder How did I know?  Even the association of failure to honor the Earth Spirits causing climate disruption.  This is the shaman I was designed … Continue reading

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“I’ve been working for so long…”

Going through my blog for 2017, I came to this post from February 2017.  It’s a journal entry from January 2017.  It pretty well describes what I’m feeling like right now.  The only difference is that I AM in a … Continue reading

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Guidance

Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I have been having a confusing time with this new part that’s waked up in me.  It seems clear that integrating her is my job for now.  But I’m uncertain.  I’m afraid it’s too “self-involved.”  … Continue reading

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Grief for my Old Life

Last week I was diagnosed with macular degeneration.  It is the leading cause of blindness in people over 60.  It can proceed at different rates.  They told me that an intense dose of vitamins could help, so I got some … Continue reading

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The Arctic is Burning, the Amazon is Burning

I spent some time last week being totally freaked out about global warming.  Through some synchronicities (see previous post) I was helped to understand how it related to my childhood trauma of being abandoned by my mother.  The panic subsided, … Continue reading

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Struggle to understand why I’ve been so freaked out…

I haven’t posted for a while because I’ve been having a very hard time.  The usual brain not working, often feeling shaky and weak, feeling burdened by so many unresolved things, unable to think what to do next, finding it … Continue reading

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To Hold Your Work Free from both Hope and Fear

Looking up the source of the story about Yitzhak Perlman, I found it came from a piece by Margaret Wheatley called “Eight Fearless Questions.” Quoting Perlman: “You know, sometimes it is the artist’s task to find out how much music … Continue reading

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Confrontation with Aging

For three months I’ve been disabled by one thing after another.  First the bad cold that was going around, then the endless cough.  The cough put my lower back out, and I didn’t have a clear diagnosis for two weeks.  … Continue reading

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Seeing my Life as a Task

From my journal for Monday, July 30: In Franconia.  I look around my house and see things that need to be dealt with and my heart hurts.  Why would my heart hurt when I see something that needs to be … Continue reading

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Vocation

I wondered yesterday if the effort to heal from PTSD could itself be a vocation.  That my work to heal myself is significant and meaningful.  That the point is not to be healed, and then to do what would be … Continue reading

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