Monthly Archives: May 2012

Guidance

Posted on May 31, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling more scared this morning than I have in a number of days.  Please help me.     Dear Jenny, a lot of people are scared.  This is a tough time … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on May 30, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Walked in to Caryn’s feeling pretty good.  I told her about being able to use the idea of finding the relatively more comfortable place, and how I’ve been talking to the baby, feeling the uncomfortable feelings … Continue reading →

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Tired and Discouraged

Posted on May 29, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Sunday evening.  I made a list of dances I’d like to do, and started a partial playlist on the computer.  With only a few, we started outside, doing Kos and Maize around the chimenea.  More people … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on May 28, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Session with Caryn.  Went to my corner and cried.  Wanted to bang my head, but then pounded with my fists which became a punch — an angry punch outward.  I told her about being OK with … Continue reading →

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Email to my Psychiatrist

Posted on May 25, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) I’m doing very badly. My sleep was broken last night.  This has been a pattern lately: I wake up at 4 or 5, go back to bed with a CD and do my breath exercise (which … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on May 24, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Session with Caryn. No coherent narrative, I just remember disconnected fragments.  Telling her about Elizabeth saying when she first met me she thought I was generous and kind. And then shivering and trying to hide.  When … Continue reading →

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Little Group of Jennys

Posted on May 23, 2012 by jenny

(Written in August 2009) I did have a number of waves of fear yesterday, but none of them lasted very long which is encouraging.  Told Beverly about my project of compiling all the good experiences into a document that I … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on May 22, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Session with Caryn.  My corner was dismantled so I demanded it be set up and squinched right into it and started to cry while she was still bringing pillows.  She sat next to me and put … Continue reading →

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Healing Work

Posted on May 21, 2012 by jenny

(Written in September 2009) Spent some time talking to Lynelle, sitting out on her front porch.  We were talking about therapy — she said she thought people only did it because they had leisure and wealth, or they were forced … Continue reading →

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Little Jenny

Posted on May 20, 2012 by jenny

I think of Little Jenny and want to hug and comfort her.  I see her, she’s very real to me right now, and I also see how lovable she is.  It’s easy for me to see how lots of people … Continue reading →

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