Monthly Archives: December 2021

That Twilight Feeling, reprise

Posted on December 31, 2021 by jenny

These two messages arrived at the end of the year. They speak to exactly how I’m feeling, which is very lonely, very sad, a sense that there is no meaning to my life, a kind of end-of-life version of That … Continue reading →

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Accept that this is the Reality of Who I am?

Posted on December 27, 2021 by jenny

I first heard about Claude Anshin Thomas in one of Richard Rohr’s daily meditations. He’s a Vietnam Vet who suffered from flashbacks that keep him from sleeping more than a couple of hours at a time. He talks about realizing … Continue reading →

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Seeing that I am Still Connected

Posted on December 26, 2021 by jenny

I worked on this blog post on November 6, but didn’t publish it. Reading it over, I think it expresses very well exactly where I was. From my journal for Monday, November 1 Headache. Feeling a little bleak. … Continue reading →

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Truth

Posted on December 26, 2021 by jenny

I always enjoy it when the “real” truth appears. Actually I really like Parker Palmer’s definition: “Truth is an eternal conversation about things that matter, conducted with passion and discipline.” Interestingly, I remember it as an ongoing conversation. That’s how … Continue reading →

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Words to Help me Keep on Keeping On

Posted on December 25, 2021 by jenny

This was first posted in July 2016. I’m needing them badly again. Between the holidays and COVID getting worse again, I’m looking at a difficult week. I won’t talk with Erica until January, I’m without her for two weeks. Grief … Continue reading →

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Empty Cold Place

Posted on December 20, 2021 by jenny

from my journal for October 24 2021 Checking email, I saw something about how corporate interests are acting against the freedom of the internet. I could feel the “bad guys” closing in, and it reminded me of Etty Hillesum as … Continue reading →

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Horrible Day

Posted on December 11, 2021 by jenny

I haven’t posted anything new to this blog since November 5. I’ve been having a very hard time, partly due to struggling with a dead battery in my car, which first looked like it was problem with the electrical system. … Continue reading →

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