Monthly Archives: January 2012

Taking care of myself

(Written in September 2006) Yesterday, I made a conscious decision to take care of the traumatized baby — to make her my first priority — that was partly why I lost myself in a book — because that’s the only … Continue reading

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Who to take care of?

(Written in September 2006) I had talked to Kayla about wondering if part of my energy drain had to do with helping Eleanor.  If it was, I was OK with it, I just wanted to know that’s what was happening.  … Continue reading

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The Dark Night and Depression

“Before enlightenment, take Prozac and talk to your shrink.  After enlightenment, take Prozac and talk to your shrink.” Dr. Gerald May quoting Judith Hooper’s conclusion after interviewing a collection of psychiatrists and buddhist practitioners.  The Dark Night of the Soul, … Continue reading

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Guidance

(Written in July 2006) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, it’s still raining and I’m scared about climate change.  I’m also scared that free sharing on the Internet is about to be sold to Big Business.  I see that my hope … Continue reading

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The Dark Night of the Soul

Recently I’ve been struggling with depression again again, and my friend Lynelle reminded me of a book that Elizabeth sent me several years ago when I was going through the worst of my breakdown.  The Dark Night of the Soul, … Continue reading

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Morning Sadness

(Written in July 2006) One of the consequences of depression is I wake with sadness every morning.  Sometimes I work on it in my journal. Morning sadness.  Ache in my heart. ME: Heart, can you tell me what the ache … Continue reading

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Guidance

(Written in July 2006) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling an urge to push ahead with applying to have an art show and getting an “about Jenny” page up on the website.  I keep losing my energy due to … Continue reading

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Struggle with Depression & Medication

(Written in October 2006) Eleanor got mad at me yesterday.  She thinks I’m depressed and should be raising my medication.  I said I was upset because I printed out stuff calling for political action and nobody cares enough to do … Continue reading

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Guidance

(Written in May 2005) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling pretty bleak.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  You are feeling bad about yourself because you seem to get discouraged “so easily”.  You are comparing … Continue reading

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Medication

In the last couple of weeks I’ve noticed that everything was getting harder. Just getting through the day is harder when I find it difficult to do practical things like shop or prepare a meal or take out the compost, … Continue reading

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