Monthly Archives: April 2013

Guidance

Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits,  I’m feeling so sad.  Maybe even depressed.  I think if I could cry I’d feel better.  I’m not even sure what it’s about. Dear Jenny, we love you very much, and we know you are … Continue reading

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Guidance

(Written in December 2005) Ann Staffeld called to tell me a story: she was at Church and a man asked if she had been in a movie.  Turned out he’s a batterer, doing a program, and the video of Journey … Continue reading

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A Beacon for Hope

My house has a cupola.  It’s not big enough to climb into,  but it has a light.  When they were building the house, and I was living across the street at Neskaya, Greg put a work light in the cupola so … Continue reading

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Guidance

(Written in April 2005) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, my heart aches and I keep talking to David in my mind.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, you are doing just fine.  This is another layer of deep old grief.  You … Continue reading

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Somatic Experiencing

(Written in May 2005) The work with Brad was pendulating between the cold grey frozen place, and the colorful place filled with life.  I described the “World of Diversity” and Brad said I had brought it out of all the … Continue reading

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Smashed Life

I’m finding it fascinating that there are so many passages in 2005 that resonate for me now: the loss and grief and pain, the depth of the wound that’s been opened, the way the meaning drains out of my life.  … Continue reading

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Caring for my Life

(Written in November 2005) Seasons of Grace quotes Frodo: “I wish the Ring had never come to me… I wish none of this had happened.” Gandalf replies “So do all who live to see such times, but that is not … Continue reading

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Wild and Precious Life

(Written in August 2005) I was thinking about the line from Mary Oliver: “what will you do with your one wild and precious life?” and how it always makes me feel bad, like I have wasted mine.  Well, have I … Continue reading

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Dealing with Rejection

(Written in October 2005) This morning I woke up with an ache in my heart and realized I was angry with myself for not being beautiful.  Then my heart went out to me, and that helped a lot. DAMMIT! Somewhere, … Continue reading

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Abandonment Trauma

Saturday I went to a workshop with Sal Rachele.  He did some guided meditations.  One of them helped me get back in touch with that feeling of being supported by the universe.  So of course I was feeling enough better … Continue reading

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