Monthly Archives: June 2024

1996: Imprisoned by an Idea

Posted on June 30, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for January 28, 1996 Dana said something about “life moving in to fill every niche.”  It’s a lovely image, and it reminded me of what Beverly said about seeds wanting to grow — and I see the … Continue reading →

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1996: Realize that I HAVE made a Contribution

Posted on June 29, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for January 28, 1996 It’s possible that my life will make some sort of contribution to the world.  By participating in circle dance — keeping that going — by building Neskaya to support activities which would be … Continue reading →

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Healing the Heart

Posted on June 28, 2024 by jenny

I’ve been thinking about the change that happened when Tala did some acupuncture work on heart points. Basically, I started to feel “normal” — not scared, not sad — it took me a while to see that I was feeling … Continue reading →

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“It’s only Love that never ends…”

Posted on June 23, 2024 by jenny

While walking Mocha this morning I had a sense of helpful spirits being with me.  Then I listened to Meg Barnhouse singing “All Shall be Well.”  Toward the end she sings “… it’s only love that never ends.  And so … Continue reading →

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The Sweet Influence of Pleiades

Posted on June 22, 2024 by jenny

Writing with Sharon.  We wrote for 20 minutes, then read and talked about what we wrote. Talking to Erica about Non-duality.  I find that my comfort with not knowing who I am, not having any “identity,” is actually a non-dual … Continue reading →

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1996: Rules for Re-doing Life 101

Posted on June 19, 2024 by jenny

I’m not sure where these ideas came from. They were on a piece of paper taped in the back of the notebook. They were written on March 4, so they should have been included in the post about Re-doing “Life … Continue reading →

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1996: Dull Misery

Posted on June 17, 2024 by jenny

These journal entries were written in March 1996 [I had a gush of pain while Dr. Tatone, chiropractor, worked on me] It was a little disappointing, because I had felt so well this morning, felt like a human being for … Continue reading →

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1996: Go Back and Re-do “Life 101”

Posted on June 9, 2024 by jenny

These journal entries are immediately after the Paxil episode. I find the experiences I describe quite extraordinary. I have been reading a book called The Journey of Soul Initiation by Bill Plotkin. His understanding of how the world works and … Continue reading →

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Traumatized Before the Age of Three

Posted on June 8, 2024 by jenny

What makes it possible for humans to have “basic trust in a benign universe”? This is an idea that Kaethe Weinberg talks about in her book Common Shock. She wrote that “children raised in a “good enough” environment grow up … Continue reading →

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Experience of Taking Paxil

Posted on June 5, 2024 by jenny

Back in March I posted part of my journal from February 1996 that describes seeing Dr. Brunette to ask about anti-depressant medication. She prescribed Paxil, since I felt very untrusting of Prozac. I had a terrible experience.  The notes I … Continue reading →

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