Monthly Archives: August 2014

Past Misery

I don’t really want to write down all the details of yesterday. I think I’d rather explore some topic. This is a change. Possibly it started with the work with Erica. I know this writing is a daily discipline, possibly … Continue reading

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Lifelong Fear

I’ve been thinking that most of my life I’ve been scared that I’ll do something wrong and everyone will reject and leave me and scared that I’ll fail to do something I’m supposed to do and everyone will reject and … Continue reading

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“Thanksgiving”

From the “Mimi” journal.  In my adolescence, I started writing a journal.  I had read the Diary of Anne Frank, and copied her idea of letters to an invisible friend.  This was written in 1959 when I was 17. Thursday, 26 … Continue reading

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Depression & Apathy

I was tired all day and I’m still tired but this morning I’m feeling bleak.  It would be depression except that I know intellectually that help is just around the corner. I want to think about the difference between apathy … Continue reading

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Step One Again Again

After the emotional blowout of Thursday, when I told Karen how the work on my car was going on and on and not getting done and cried and cried in her office for most of the session, I collapsed.  I … Continue reading

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Box of Stories

Once again I am feeling apathetic.  This is the third week of my therapist’s vacation, and I’m feeling a little like she doesn’t exist, and it’s very hard to get my energy up to do anything, or even to make … Continue reading

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Healing with Art

The Daily Good sends out a piece of positive news every day.  I don’t always read them right away.  Today I went back and started reading old ones that I had never looked at.  This one is from early January … Continue reading

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