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Monthly Archives: August 2013
Treating the Pain like an Honored Guest
Friday My heart aches. This is the other side of loving Bella. I accept the ache as the price of loving. I would not choose to refuse the love in order to avoid the pain. I put my arms around … Continue reading
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Bodhisattva Vow
Written in July 2009 I can’t remember the session with Caryn very well. I went back to my corner and told her how I had gotten “too big” and needed to pull back. I had brought the doll I had … Continue reading
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Guidance
(Written in July 2009) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling a little sad and scared and lonely. Can you help me? Dear Jenny, relax. Let your weight sink down into the couch. You are truly supported by the earth … Continue reading
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Guidance
(Written in May 2009) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m in pretty rough shape. A little scared, a little fragile, a little depressed. I’m feeling cold and distant, and don’t have much hope for the future. This struggle out of depression … Continue reading
Guidance
(Written in February 2009) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling very lost and confused. I’ve no idea what happened to me, why I’ve collapsed so badly. I’ve no idea what to do except follow Dr. Seigle’s program for medication … Continue reading
“Big Heart”
Written in April 2009 With Karen I talked about having trouble taking in the love that’s there for me. Karen said I was “lovable” and I cried and turned away. She said I have a big heart. I thought how … Continue reading
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How Depression Makes Life Harder
Written in April 2009 during the Training in Women’s Ritual Dance, given at Neskaya by Laura Shannon. I feel so much grief and anger that I haven’t been able to participate and enjoy these days with this group of women. … Continue reading
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Why God Manifested Jenny
(Written at a retreat with Jack Kornfield, December 2008) Thinking about stories Jack told about “retarded” people, and I thought that was god manifesting in a “retarded” body. So then I wondered why god had manifested Jenny. What particular energy … Continue reading
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Guidance
(Written in January 2009) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m having a pretty hard time just getting through the day. Can you help me? Dear Jenny, you are doing just fine. You are doing the work that you need to … Continue reading
The Story of God Greeting Me at the Gates of Heaven
After searching through all my journals since 2000, I found a reference to this story in February of 2011. So I suspect it happened sometime in late 2010. Apparently I never wrote it down at all! I was feeling bad … Continue reading