Category Archives: Somatic Experiencing

Returning Someone to Themselves

Posted on October 7, 2024 by jenny

This page was first published in January 2015.  In some ways it tells the whole story of my work to heal from trauma, and starting to heal the attachment wound.  I thought it was important enough to repost. I’m reading … Continue reading →

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1995: Sullen Angry 8-yr-old

Posted on October 30, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for November 28, 1995 Well, let’s see if she is here, that sullen angry hurt child.  I have a hit of her age as being 8 or 9, and of Mother as a hurt angry sullen child … Continue reading →

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“A deep well of sadness”

Posted on May 17, 2023 by jenny

Writing done in group on Monday, May 15 A well of unprocessed grief “To be met!”  That’s what I said when I was doing somatic experiencing with Peter Payne.  He also did body work and I was sitting on his … Continue reading →

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The Oneness of Guilt and Pain

Posted on June 28, 2020 by jenny

I watched this talk on Healing Trauma and Spiritual Growth with Peter Levine, who developed Somatic Experiencing, and Thomas Huebl, a spiritual teacher, and found it enormously helpful.  In fact I watched it twice.  I was struck by a story … Continue reading →

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How I Was Traumatized

Posted on June 10, 2020 by jenny

I realize that when I described feeling like George Floyd being held down and suffocated, I didn’t explain what happened to me and how it felt.  I had a dear friend who had been horribly abused in a physically abusive … Continue reading →

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Issue of Control

Posted on July 16, 2018 by jenny

July 10 Fear came up.  The cold vibration in my diaphragm.  It didn’t fade so I stayed with it.  Tried to meditate — actually maybe I did finally hold on to the lovingkindness prayer for myself.  Somewhere along the way … Continue reading →

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Working with Uncomfortable Physical Sensations

Posted on June 22, 2017 by jenny

The situation: I bought a car for my friend Eleanor, because the one she was driving has bad brakes that may go anytime.  I am also in the final stages of applying to Kendal, a retirement community that will provide … Continue reading →

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Emptiness

Posted on January 9, 2014 by jenny

I haven’t been able to post anything for quite a while.  Bella’s death opened up the huge abyss of abandonment. The session with Caryn was tough.  I started in my corner and crying.  I wanted to ask her what was … Continue reading →

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Ten Years — Forty Years

Posted on December 5, 2013 by jenny

I wrote a journal piece 10 years ago, on my effort to understand which stories work for me and which don’t.  I posted it as “Choices & Dysfunctional Beliefs.”  It’s painful to me that I’ve been struggling with PTSD for … Continue reading →

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It Gets Harder

Posted on September 18, 2013 by jenny

My heart hurts.  Grieving for Bella has gotten harder.  Thursday I was depressed.  Friday I started the day feeling totally empty, feeling like Bella had never lived.  I couldn’t remember what she looked like.  I couldn’t feel her spirit. Then … Continue reading →

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