Monthly Archives: March 2010

“You create your own life”

(Written in November 2004) A friend is having trouble with the idea that “you create your own life.” I think it’s a reflection of Western Culture’s obsession with control and refusal to accept vulnerability.  I used the image of a … Continue reading

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(Written in August 2008) I’m finding it hard to accept that I need to keep taking 50mg imipramine just to be able to keep going.  It feels like such a defeat, such a proof that I’m a weakling.  I was … Continue reading

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Ordinary Day

(Written in March 2010) Woke at 6:00 and got up.  I don’t feel quite as tired as I usually do at first.  20° and a clear sky.  Puttered around in the morning, did some typing, some straightening up the house, … Continue reading

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Thoughts on Embodied Cognition

This started with a piece I wrote recently in response to a post on “Embodied Cognition” that went to an e-list of women who took a training with Laura Shannon.  The training was in Women’s Traditional Ritual Dances, and we … Continue reading

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(Written in August 2008) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m having a really hard time.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  Let yourself relax and sink into our loving.  It is hard for you to … Continue reading

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Asking for Help

(Written in  January 2009) One thing that has come out of this bad time is I’m starting to ask for help.  After I had been to Kripalu for the meditation retreat, I saw Caryn, and we agreed that it hadn’t … Continue reading

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Somatic Experiencing

(Written in May 2009) Intense session with Caryn.  Set up the corner with the beanbag blocking in a smaller space.  Told her that I’d been working on the loss of healthy sexuality, that I’d read the pages to Karen and … Continue reading

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What it’s like in the Underworld of PTSD

(Written in September 2008) At Neskaya.  Having a cup of tea because I’ve been cold all morning.  This reminds me of that terrible February when I went to Cincinnati — for a week?  I know I wrote “two whole weeks … Continue reading

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Spring Equinox

Technically it was yesterday the sun went into Aries, but we celebrate at Neskaya today.  Mythologically, this is the day Persephone returns from the underworld.  The story is that Hades, God of the Underworld, saw her and pulled her down … Continue reading

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(Written  January 2008) Had a bad shock yesterday.  I was reading Deena Metzger’s book (From Grief to Vision) & there was something about the peat bogs in Siberia releasing methane as they melt — an irreversible process — it may … Continue reading

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