Monthly Archives: January 2015

The Day the Christmas Tree Fell Down

Posted on January 30, 2015 by jenny

In the week since that painful therapy session  I’ve been through a lot of ups and downs.  But one thing made me hopeful.  I talked to a friend about activities I needed to do with someone, and it’s like she didn’t … Continue reading →

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Returning Someone to Themselves

Posted on January 26, 2015 by jenny

I’m reading Tattoos on the Heart, subtitled The Power of Boundless Compassion.  The author, Father Greg Boyle, tells about his work with “homies” (kids from the gangs) in the worst section of L.A.  “Empowerment rests in returning folks to themselves, … Continue reading →

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Redemption

Posted on January 24, 2015 by jenny

Told Lynelle about feeling like there was “no god” for the last couple of days.  She knows what that’s like.  She said she thinks of penguins — who else could have thought them up?  She also gave me back Tattoos … Continue reading →

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Difficult and Painful

Posted on January 22, 2015 by jenny

Yesterday I had the most difficult and painful therapy session I’ve ever had.  I’m going to record it here in case it is helpful to someone else.  It’s likely to sound very strange to anyone who’s not had the experiences … Continue reading →

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Nancy Napier

Posted on January 17, 2015 by jenny

Nancy Napier’s book “Getting Through the Day; Strategies for Adults Hurt as Children” has been a really helpful resource for me.  At first it simply validated my despair and sense that there was no way out. For children who were … Continue reading →

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Despair

Posted on January 16, 2015 by jenny

I’ve been having a really bad time.  It started with “that twilight feeling,” the first experience of depression that I can remember.  I was 12 years old.  I was left alone at our summer house in Maine, with three younger … Continue reading →

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Losing Myself

Posted on January 15, 2015 by jenny

From my journal: Friday Don’t even know how to start.  When I got to Karen’s I thought I’d cry a lot.  Also thought of getting on the bed and kicking and pounding.  I probably should have done that.  I’m not … Continue reading →

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“Not Worth Taking Care Of”

Posted on January 14, 2015 by jenny

Entries from my journal for early January: Monday I was typing the entry for December 1, where I had talked about not telling someone outside the shop that their car lights were on, and not picking up a hitch-hiker, and … Continue reading →

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Epiphany

Posted on January 6, 2015 by jenny

When I worked in a Planetarium, we did a “Christmas Star” show in December.  Among different ideas such as a comet, a nova, or a conjunction of planets so close that they might have looked like one very bright star, … Continue reading →

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