Monthly Archives: August 2011

Torah of Jenny

Posted on August 31, 2011 by jenny

The “Torah of Jenny” was a project that I started with an art therapist, Lore Caldwell, who I was seeing in Littleton.  She started me with a roll of brown paper, and it turned out to be my life as … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on August 29, 2011 by jenny

(Written in June 2006) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling a little sad this morning.  Please help me.     Dear Jenny, we love you very much.  Let yourself feel our love surrounding you.  Relax.  It’s OK to just BE.  … Continue reading →

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A Letter from God

Posted on August 26, 2011 by jenny

For a while now I’ve been hanging out with “lost the will to live.”  Paying attention to the feelings but not acting on them.  I notice that I don’t have a lot of energy, and it’s hard to summon up … Continue reading →

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Five Stages of Trauma

Posted on August 17, 2011 by jenny

Reading Levine again, I see that he actually defines 5 stages of trauma.  Most of us know that we have an instinct to preserve life that manifests as “fight or  flight.”  Not many people realize that there’s a “default”instinct that … Continue reading →

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The Collapse Phase

Posted on August 12, 2011 by jenny

Written yesterday Hard to get out of bed.  Feeling — not exactly depressed — but some sense of no future, or of getting through the day being a chore.  Lonely?  I know I didn’t feel like this at Dance Camp.  … Continue reading →

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Hope

Posted on August 5, 2011 by jenny

I continue to be surprised that telling the truth about how I feel and sharing it results in me feeling a lot better.   Once I wrote a letter to my brother about how depressed I was feeling and the same … Continue reading →

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Depression/Demoralization

Posted on August 4, 2011 by jenny

I was pretty much in low-grade fear all day yesterday.  I was able to cry a little, sitting with Eleanor.   I can feel a pain and coldness in my heart right now.    My heart really aches.  I feel sad and … Continue reading →

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