Category Archives: Trauma

Feeling Miserable

Posted on November 29, 2024 by jenny

I haven’t posted in a long time, I’ve been feeling so miserable.  In fact I really lost it at one time, so now I’m in the health center instead of independent living.  At least I’m not alone so much.  I … Continue reading →

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My Trauma is Triggered by Being Alone Too Much

Posted on November 24, 2024 by jenny

I’m finally feeling more together and coherent.  I had moved to the health center because my trauma had been triggered, and I had pretty completely fallen apart.  The notebook about that is still in my apartment, so I don’t have … Continue reading →

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Work with Very Young, Non-verbal Parts

Posted on October 30, 2024 by jenny

This is the first post in a while.  I’ve been having a really hard time, had to move to the Health Center where I could be taken care of.  If I hadn’t found this piece of writing, written when I … Continue reading →

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Tough Going

Posted on October 14, 2024 by jenny

Originally posted in June 2015 Pain.  “What you feel you can heal” The session with Erica was filled with so much pain.  I don’t think I’ve ever felt so much except maybe long ago when I splashed pain all over … Continue reading →

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What it’s Like to Live with PTSD

Posted on October 13, 2024 by jenny

Originally posted in June 2015 It’s sunny and beautiful out, and I can’t bear it.  It’s a day to go out and enjoy the world, and I just want to hide.  Yesterday was so much easier, it was grey with … Continue reading →

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Work with a Very Young Part

Posted on October 8, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for October 8: Reading my blog post for February  2015, “Deep Work,” work I did over quite a period of time, January 11 to February 14. It was an attempt to get in touch with a very … Continue reading →

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Returning Someone to Themselves

Posted on October 7, 2024 by jenny

This page was first published in January 2015.  In some ways it tells the whole story of my work to heal from trauma, and starting to heal the attachment wound.  I thought it was important enough to repost. I’m reading … Continue reading →

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1997: How My Writing Has Changed

Posted on October 6, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for September 29, 1997 So how has my writing changed?  Being “literary” is no longer top priority.  I no longer find myself thinking “This is one of the great journals of the world,” no longer fantasize someone … Continue reading →

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1997: Impossible Setup

Posted on September 14, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for March 13, 1997 It’s so sad…  Dana has had too many experiences of women who wouldn’t or couldn’t make love to him, and I’ve had too many experiences of being replaced by someone else, starting with … Continue reading →

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Struggling with Confusing Feelings

Posted on September 9, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for Sunday, September 8 The CAC [Center for Action and Contemplation] today was on forgiveness.  I realize I have to forgive D——   — I’m not even sure for what — for not valuing me?  If that’s … Continue reading →

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