Category Archives: Trauma

Feeling Compassion for Myself

One of my constant struggles is to find compassion for myself.  Most of the time I’m angry at myself and hating myself for being such a failure.  I’ve treated myself worse than any other human being. From my journal for … Continue reading

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The Body Knows, the Heart Knows

I haven’t posted for a long time because I’ve been doing so badly.  When I read this the other day, it described so well exactly how I’ve been feeling.  I even found myself able to cry, which rarely happens in … Continue reading

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Trapped in Stone

Tuesday, July 13 Work with Erica was experiential, she asked me to not write during the session.  Passages in italics are from my journal: An intense session with Erica.  She managed to get me out of being trapped in rock.  … Continue reading

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Working with Scared One

from journal for Monday, August 2 Yesterday was pretty miserable. I realize that in some ways the misery of the day matched the metaphor of being trapped in stone. Trapped in a narrow point of view. Unable to imagine anything bigger. I started … Continue reading

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Order — Disorder — Reorder

This is from Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation for today, July 25 Living in a transitional age such as ours is scary: things are falling apart, the future is unknowable, so much doesn’t cohere or make sense. We can’t seem to … Continue reading

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Blow by Blow Description of Work with “Parts”

This is an attempt to illustrate what my work with parts is like.  I wrote in my journal exactly what was going on, when it was happening. Sunday, July 18 I think if I can’t do anything else, maybe I … Continue reading

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Rescuing Young Parts

My therapist and I are working with Richard Schwartz’s ideas, developed over the last 20 years as Internal Family Systems.  Instead of being able to deal with parts who can talk individually, I get flooded by parts who are desperate … Continue reading

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My Indigenous Celtic Soul

Something I’ve been discovering lately, after reading The Gatherings, is that I in fact have an indigenous soul, and an indigenous spirituality.  I realized that the traditional folk dances are indigenous, they come from people who had lived for generations … Continue reading

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Forgiveness

From my journal for Monday, June 28 Yesterday was a miserable day.  The low-grade fear or whatever it is in my heart is so uncomfortable.  I’ve been trying to get her to tell me what the problem is, but so … Continue reading

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Angry One

Feeling desperately scared the morning of June 22, I found it really hard even to go through my well-practiced routine of cooking breakfast.  As soon as I finished breakfast and walked Mocha, I went down to the Clinic to see … Continue reading

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