Category Archives: Trauma

1995: “Happiness is a Choice?”

From my journal for Sept 5,1995 Reading the new version of Son-Rise — a friend offered it to me because of their practice of radical acceptance of their autistic son — I find myself very angry at the exposition of … Continue reading

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Early Work with Younger “Parts”

(Written in June 2004) In a session of the “Wave Work” at Kripalu: there was a confusing struggle with my body’s tendency to cramp up (esp left hand) and kick, shake, jump.  Finally I let it shrivel up into a … Continue reading

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1995: Symptoms of Trauma

At this point in 1995 I had no idea I was dealing with PTSD. From my journal for November 10: Second cup of tea. … and nothing to say.  I feel cold.  There’s the ache in my stomach and heart … Continue reading

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“Attainment too is Emptiness…”

Written in writing group on Monday, September 4 The title comes from a Buddhist chant to the Bodhisattva of Compassion. and nothing to say…  nothing to say…  The world is empty.  I’m the only one left on the planet.  That … Continue reading

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1995: The Trauma of “Don’t think you’re so great”

In this passage I see that I am essentially a creative person, but I’ve never been able to actualize more than a small percentage of what I was capable of. The reason is because of my mother constantly telling me … Continue reading

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1995: Biological Foundation for Mood Disorders

I wish I had named the book and the author.  I find it fascinating that it took so long for me to find out that I was dealing with trauma, that my reaction to the noise of the planes was … Continue reading

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1995: “Truth” and “Self”

This is was written during the time when I was having a bad time with the noise of small planes, especially the ones that towed gliders up from the Franconia Airport. I wrote this after a particularly bad day. I’m … Continue reading

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1995: Self-Mutilation

So amazing to read this. I started cutting myself in California when a boyfriend left me for someone else. I did it for a number of years in my 20’s, and stopped, interestingly, when my brother said “Buddha says ‘life … Continue reading

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1995: “The Whole Thing”

SUNDAY, JULY 30, 1995    Sometime in the early ’90s I followed the program described in Julia Cameron’s book The Artist’s Way. “Morning pages” is one of the exercises in Julia Cameron’s program. Nika is the Artist part of me, I … Continue reading

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1995: Journey Into Courage Video and Fear about Mom

After the first showing of the movie about Journey Into Courage, I realized that my siblings’ names were listed among the contributors to making the video.  I worried about mother finding out.  At this point I still didn’t know about … Continue reading

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