Monthly Archives: April 2020

Gaslighting, Reprise

I posted “Another Complete Cycle” on March 18, 2020.  It’s about a day when Daily Kos posted something about Donald Trump’s minimizing of the COVID crisis, and I suddenly didn’t trust Daily Kos.  Now that didn’t really make sense, because … Continue reading

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A Day in the Life During Pandemic

Typing up Wednesday, March 25 a month later, which is when I usually do it.  It’s odd to go back a month and see how we were just starting to come to terms with the pandemic.  To see the fragmentation … Continue reading

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What if it’s Armageddon?

Reposted from May 2010 This is one of my favorite quotes.  It keeps me going when things are very dark. “I’m asked, night after night, ‘Is this the New Age, or is it the Armageddon?’ And I say, ‘I used … Continue reading

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How I Healed the Phobia

These are the last two paragraphs of my blog post from 2011 about the airplane phobia: “Looking back at it, I can see better how it became so horrendous.  Hypersensitivity to sound is a symptom of PTSD, but I still … Continue reading

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Invalidating and Trivializing my Experience

I have been reading my journal for 1986, and came across this entry about the noise phobia in November. I had a bad time with anger yesterday.  Feelings of rage kept surfacing, and I would let myself feel it, but … Continue reading

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I Can Trust MYSELF

from my journal for Thursday, April 16 3rd cup. Dandelion tea.  Richard Rohr says that real hope rests on a deep knowledge  and experience of God.  Because I have such a deep distrust of “God,” I see that my experience … Continue reading

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Noise Phobia

From my journal for January 6, 1984  I am just beginning to experience the noise phobia.  It will continue until 1997. I’m having an extraordinarily hard time lately.  I’ve been oddly sick, up and down, for about two weeks.  Sore … Continue reading

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Good Friday

Richard Rohr: I believe that the cross is an image for our own time, and every time: we are invited to gaze upon the image of the crucified Jesus to soften our hearts toward all suffering. Amidst the devastating spread of COVID-19, the cross beckons us … Continue reading

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Making the Choice for Love

from Richard Rohr’s daily meditation for April 9: Giving up control is a school to learn union, compassion, and understanding. It is ultimately a school for the final letting go that we call death. Right now, as we face social … Continue reading

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Gratitude

I have been concerned lately about what are the things I would really regret not having done if I died tomorrow.  That was the push to get me over the hump to actually write gratitude letters to people I had … Continue reading

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