Monthly Archives: August 2024

1997: The Oneness of Perpetrator and Victim

Posted on August 28, 2024 by jenny

from my journal for January 8, 1997 Dana said “Drugs are no escape” and described a man he had once had to arrest— he was drunk, his body deteriorating, his emotions out of control, he obviously had not escaped the … Continue reading →

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1997: Struggle with Misery

Posted on August 27, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for January 1, 1997 I can’t trust my perceptions right now because I’m sick and everything looks bleak to me.  I’m reading my way through Elizabeth Goudge — I find even her books difficult which is an … Continue reading →

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Wisdom from Inner Teacher

Posted on August 24, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for Saturday, August 24 Wanting to talk to someone about spirituality, I remember the Inner Teacher. Haven’t asked that one for help for a long time. Dear Inner Teacher, I’m not feeling very connected with Spirit and need … Continue reading →

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1996: Big Life Change

Posted on August 22, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for September 23, 1996. I find it fascinating that I start to do so much better. I think the work about Mother helped. I suspect that it’s also because, or maybe even mainly because I’ve been taking … Continue reading →

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1996: The Summer from Hell

Posted on August 20, 2024 by jenny

This is typical of that summer. I’ve just started taking medication and notice that the fear is reduced, but I’m still feeling depressed.  From my journal for September 1, 1996 Slept badly.  Woke with hot flash & burning pains at … Continue reading →

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My Current Struggle

Posted on August 15, 2024 by jenny

Writing with a friend I’ve been having a difficult time.  I don’t entirely know what’s going on for me.  I do get occasional hits of fear, and if they last a little I can stand back from myself and give … Continue reading →

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1996: Easter in the Soul

Posted on August 14, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for August 27, 1996 I thought about the phrase that moved me at the Church services this week — something about how God will comfort thy waste places o Israel.  Again I let myself feel how empty … Continue reading →

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1996: The Feast of Hecate

Posted on August 12, 2024 by jenny

Written on August 14, 1996.  I was on a retreat with Deena Metzger on the south shore of Massachusetts.  It was the Feast of Hecate, and we planned to do a ritual at night. This piece of writing is partly … Continue reading →

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Painful Relationships

Posted on August 10, 2024 by jenny

Written with a friend. We wrote together for 20 minutes, and then shared. I have been reading about my relationship with my ex-husband Dana in my journal for the summer of 1996, and posted quite a bit about it.  See … Continue reading →

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March 1976: The Journal is Center

Posted on August 9, 2024 by jenny

(written in March 1976 and initially posted in July 2012) Today I felt very depressed and sick.  The old fear came back, fear of the ringing phone, of the sun and wind outside.  I went looking for an escapist book, … Continue reading →

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