Category Archives: Journal

My Trauma is Triggered by Being Alone Too Much

Posted on November 24, 2024 by jenny

I’m finally feeling more together and coherent.  I had moved to the health center because my trauma had been triggered, and I had pretty completely fallen apart.  The notebook about that is still in my apartment, so I don’t have … Continue reading →

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1997: How My Writing Has Changed

Posted on October 6, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for September 29, 1997 So how has my writing changed?  Being “literary” is no longer top priority.  I no longer find myself thinking “This is one of the great journals of the world,” no longer fantasize someone … Continue reading →

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1997: Moving Out of Depression

Posted on October 2, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for September 12, 1997 Dream fragment: something about how I got out of depression by praising myself.  “Out of depression and into an energy high!” !! It seems to be working again.  This time I’m more conscious and … Continue reading →

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1997: Burst of Creativity

Posted on September 16, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for July 19, 1997 It’s so odd to have nothing to write in here.  I think writing used to be one way to manage my anxiety, without anxiety there’s no motive for writing.  I feel more drawn … Continue reading →

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1997: Impossible Setup

Posted on September 14, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for March 13, 1997 It’s so sad…  Dana has had too many experiences of women who wouldn’t or couldn’t make love to him, and I’ve had too many experiences of being replaced by someone else, starting with … Continue reading →

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1997: Highly Sensitive People

Posted on September 13, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for July 15, 1997 New book about “Highly Sensitive People” — It’s clear that I fall into this category, along with about 20% of the population.  Unfortunately, 42% are not sensitive at all, and sensitivity, perception of … Continue reading →

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1997: Wonderful Circle Dance Evening

Posted on September 10, 2024 by jenny

I’ve been feeling scared and lonely and forgetting to do things that might help like go to a movement class. It did help to come across this in my journal for 1997 to remind me of something I really did … Continue reading →

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Struggling with Confusing Feelings

Posted on September 9, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for Sunday, September 8 The CAC [Center for Action and Contemplation] today was on forgiveness.  I realize I have to forgive D——   — I’m not even sure for what — for not valuing me?  If that’s … Continue reading →

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1997: Maybe it had Nothing to do with Me

Posted on September 6, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for March 3, 1997 Session with Dr. Rankin.  I told her most of the stories about my mother, actually some other material around my father’s death.  Wrote it all in my journal “to keep sane.”  “So you … Continue reading →

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1997: Stories about Mother

Posted on September 5, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for March 2, 1997 I think I want to talk to Dr. Rankin about mother: “of course you wouldn’t care about the Colonial Dames” After Daddy’s funeral she was poisonous, I went to the minister, put her … Continue reading →

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