Category Archives: Journal

Inner Teacher

I’ve been having a really hard time. We have a few COVID cases among the staff, so things have closed down a little. I think they are realizing that we are suffering from lack of connection, so they are not … Continue reading

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Seeing that I am Still Connected

I worked on this blog post on November 6, but didn’t publish it.  Reading it over, I think it expresses very well exactly where I was. From my journal for Monday, November 1 Headache.  Feeling a little bleak.     … Continue reading

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Empty Cold Place

from my journal for October 24 2021 Checking email, I saw something about how corporate interests are acting against the freedom of the internet.  I could feel the “bad guys” closing in, and it reminded me of Etty Hillesum as … Continue reading

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Write My Way Down to a Truth

Thursday, November 4 Yesterday was an odd day. It felt disjointed somehow, things did not go smoothly or naturally. I think I kept want to “write my way down to a truth” and not getting to it until finally, just before 3:00 … Continue reading

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My Wounded Part Needs to be Held, not Healed

This is from the Richard Rohr daily meditation for May 3, 2021. The writer is a Vietnam Vet. I suffer from a disturbed sleep pattern that has been a part of my life since a nighttime attack in Vietnam in … Continue reading

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Inner Teacher

I stopped writing to my “Guides and Guardian Spirits” to ask for help, because at one point they suggested making a loan to someone who wasn’t really trustworthy.  This is something I’m very vulnerable to because of my childhood training … Continue reading

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How I’m Feeling Today, written long ago…

from my journal for January 14, 1993 This describes exactly how I’m feeling today. written in writers’ group, listening to music Changes like the Moon.  20 minutes The river flowing, underneath, under the soil, down in the sand.  Massive, heavy, … Continue reading

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“Priestess of Neskaya”

It feels very scary to call a part of myself “Priestess of Neskaya.” But I think if I were living out of my True Self, that’s who would be manifesting. This blog piece attempts to document a process toward integration … Continue reading

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Feeling Compassion for Myself

One of my constant struggles is to find compassion for myself.  Most of the time I’m angry at myself and hating myself for being such a failure.  I’ve treated myself worse than any other human being. From my journal for … Continue reading

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Trapped in Stone

Tuesday, July 13 Work with Erica was experiential, she asked me to not write during the session.  Passages in italics are from my journal: An intense session with Erica.  She managed to get me out of being trapped in rock.  … Continue reading

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