from my journal for Friday, February 4
Just meditated for about half an hour. Tried to hineinhorchen, to listen within. Asked Inner Teacher for help. Paid attention to the sound of snow blower. Reminded of planes. “God comes disguised as our life.” What was God trying to teach me through the plane noise? To accept, listen, pay attention, instead of push away. Remembering that moment of seeing all the names of people who responded to what I said on facebook, and feeling loved. Really feeling it as sensation, warmth and being held.
hineinhorchen is a German word. It means to hearken deeply within. It’s used by Etty Hillesum to describe how she listens to God in herself.
I reacted very badly to the sound of small planes for 14 years.
God comes disguised as our life comes from Paula D’Arcy to me via Richard Rohr.
I went through my posts for the last six months or so. In protest against facebook’s allowing misinformation, I stayed logged out most of the time, only logging in when there was something — usually activist — I felt was really important. I saw that a few friends had responded to almost every post. So I posted this on facebook: “Dear Friends who’ve responded to my posts, thank you so much! Warms my heart, which I badly need in these dark times,” and got 48 responses. I was blown away!