Category Archives: Present Day

Empty Cold Place

Posted on December 20, 2021 by jenny

from my journal for October 24 2021 Checking email, I saw something about how corporate interests are acting against the freedom of the internet.  I could feel the “bad guys” closing in, and it reminded me of Etty Hillesum as … Continue reading →

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Horrible Day

Posted on December 11, 2021 by jenny

I haven’t posted anything new to this blog since November 5.  I’ve been having a very hard time, partly due to struggling with a dead battery in my car, which first looked like it was problem with the electrical system. … Continue reading →

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Write My Way Down to a Truth

Posted on November 5, 2021 by jenny

Thursday, November 4 Yesterday was an odd day. It felt disjointed somehow, things did not go smoothly or naturally. I think I kept want to “write my way down to a truth” and not getting to it until finally, just before 3:00 … Continue reading →

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My Wounded Part Needs to be Held, not Healed

Posted on November 4, 2021 by jenny

This is from the Richard Rohr daily meditation for May 3, 2021. The writer is a Vietnam Vet. I suffer from a disturbed sleep pattern that has been a part of my life since a nighttime attack in Vietnam in … Continue reading →

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Relational Trauma

Posted on October 28, 2021 by jenny

From Matt Licata’s blog: The tragedy of relational trauma presents itself as a cellular fragmenting, more primordial than a mere cognitive dissonance, neurally-encoded and rooted in the soul. In addition to the chronic empathic failure and narcissistic injury which goes … Continue reading →

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Inner Teacher

Posted on October 23, 2021 by jenny

I stopped writing to my “Guides and Guardian Spirits” to ask for help, because at one point they suggested making a loan to someone who wasn’t really trustworthy.  This is something I’m very vulnerable to because of my childhood training … Continue reading →

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“Priestess of Neskaya”

Posted on September 25, 2021 by jenny

It feels very scary to call a part of myself “Priestess of Neskaya.” But I think if I were living out of my True Self, that’s who would be manifesting. This blog piece attempts to document a process toward integration … Continue reading →

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Feeling Compassion for Myself

Posted on September 11, 2021 by jenny

One of my constant struggles is to find compassion for myself.  Most of the time I’m angry at myself and hating myself for being such a failure.  I’ve treated myself worse than any other human being. From my journal for … Continue reading →

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I Choose to Trust…

Posted on August 6, 2021 by jenny

There are many times when I am unable to trust that there is goodness in the universe. But I can still CHOOSE to trust, set an intention. I found Richard Rohr’s daily meditation for August 6 very helpful. Some quotes: … Continue reading →

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Trapped in Stone

Posted on August 3, 2021 by jenny

Tuesday, July 13 Work with Erica was experiential, she asked me to not write during the session.  Passages in italics are from my journal: An intense session with Erica.  She managed to get me out of being trapped in rock.  … Continue reading →

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