Category Archives: Breakdown

Depression

Posted on June 27, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2009) I’m pretty badly depressed.  It’s a little scary to be so depressed.  I remind myself that both Karen and Caryn are away, and that I had three good days last week. The session with B was … Continue reading →

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“The First Home”

Posted on June 26, 2011 by jenny

It’s been quite a while since I posted entries relating to the breakdown I experienced in the fall of 2008 and the winter of 2009.  You can catch up with these by clicking on the link for “breakdown.” (Written in … Continue reading →

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Disconnected

Posted on June 9, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2009) Feeling pretty bleak.  Disconnected from everything meaningful.  How does that feel in my body?  It’s a flat grey feeling, like cardboard, no life, no energy.  It’s so painful to be in this state.  I tell myself … Continue reading →

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A Healing Process

Posted on June 8, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2009) Yesterday was pretty bad — severe nausea all day.   Barbara came & agreed to come stay for a few days.  She’ll help with food & housework & walking the dog.  What a relief. If only I … Continue reading →

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Surrender

Posted on June 7, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) I’ve started asking God to please show me what to do.  I’m trying to surrender my life into his/her/its/their hands — I can’t do this so you must.  Please, if there is any meaning or value … Continue reading →

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I Want My Life Back

Posted on June 6, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) It was pretty amazing not to feel nauseous all day.  There was a little around lunchtime.  I can’t say I felt great, but it was such a relief not to feel sick. I want my life … Continue reading →

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Asking for Help

Posted on June 4, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) Very hard to get up this morning.   I’m tired & nauseous & weak & have no energy or enthusiasm for doing anything.  I did send the email asking for help to Janet, and similar ones to … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on June 3, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) Session with Caryn.  I collapsed onto the floor and stayed there most of the session.  I said that I wanted someone to take care of me 24 hours a day, that I desperately needed to be … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on June 2, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) Session with Caryn.  I spent a lot of it with her sitting in the corner and me leaning back against her, relaxing as much as possible.  Trying to let my body learn what it feels like … Continue reading →

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Struggle with Medication

Posted on June 1, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) Sunday Bad night.  Woke several times with hot flash & fear.  I haven’t a clue what to do.  I wish I had a meds person I could count on. Wednesday Today I see Dr. L for … Continue reading →

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