Monthly Archives: June 2010

PTSD

Posted on June 13, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) What’s coming up is how sad and frustrated I feel that I haven’t been able to live up to my own standards of responsibility and integrity.  I feel very sad that I had to leave Kayla … Continue reading →

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I’m doing the best I can

Posted on June 12, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) I’m thinking about the words I wrote yesterday “Please see me.  Please hear me.  Please understand how painful and difficult my life is.  Please understand that I’m doing the best I can.” My therapists understand.  All … Continue reading →

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Please understand me

Posted on June 11, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) I talked with Eleanor about my sadness about a relationship that’s not going well, and how rejected I felt on Sunday.  She was very understanding and validating.  She reminded me that sometimes people become angry, defensive … Continue reading →

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My Desk

Posted on June 10, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 1992) Candle.  30 minutes. Just write.  Begin from what’s in front of you.  What’s in front of me?  My desk.  On top a blue recipe box with cards of people’s addresses, a beautiful thin porcelain bowl with … Continue reading →

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Parts of Self-portrait

Posted on June 9, 2010 by jenny

Since it’s hard to see the details of the self-portrait, I took some closeups. This piece shows the area around my heart.  Words are “SHREDDED” and “TORN” This part represents my sexuality.  The word is “DESTROYED”.  There are pictures of … Continue reading →

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Self-portrait

Posted on June 7, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2006) Saw Lore yesterday.  I wanted to do a “self-portrait” like we had done at Woman’s Way.   She had a roll of paper but it wasn’t wide enough.  I said let’s make it in two halves.  She … Continue reading →

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Bleak

Posted on June 6, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2006) Work with Karen was painful.  Trying to be OK with myself just as I am and finding it impossible. I’m feeling incredibly confused and lost, sad and scared.  Heart feels squeezed.  I don’t know what to … Continue reading →

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Good Memories?

Posted on June 5, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2010) I’ve noticed the last couple of days that when I’m with people I’m fine, when I’m alone I have odd fragmentary feelings or memories and they are all filled with a kind of dull pain, perhaps … Continue reading →

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Journal Work

Posted on June 3, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2009) I spent a bit of time yesterday holding the baby doll, and telling her I won’t leave her, that her welfare is my top priority.  She feels warm now, and sometimes being with her is comforting, … Continue reading →

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Circle of Truths

Posted on June 2, 2010 by jenny

From A Hidden Wholeness by Parker Palmer “The soul wants truth, not trivia.  So if the space between us is to welcome the soul, it must be a space in which truth can be told. … “You and I may … Continue reading →

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