Category Archives: Journal

Anatomy of a Breakdown

Posted on January 20, 2020 by jenny

I’ve been reading through my blog from the very beginning. I am once again in the 12 year cycle, at a time when Jupiter in the sky is opposed Jupiter’s position when I was born. Ever since 1972 I have … Continue reading →

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Guidance from August 2008

Posted on January 18, 2020 by jenny

(Written in August 2008 and originally posted on March 16, 2010) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, it’s been a very stressful time, and I feel totally out of touch with Spirit. Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you. Take … Continue reading →

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Turnaround in the Pit

Posted on December 14, 2019 by jenny

I’ve been feeling like a combination of the Dan Siegel material, the diagnosis of macular degeneration, and reading my early journals brought me to a place where I feel beyond redemption. I think of this as the Pit, a deep … Continue reading →

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Spending Time at the Bottom of the Pit

Posted on December 10, 2019 by jenny

Friday morning, November 29, I watched a Dan Siegel talk on “Presence, Parenting, and Planet.” It was great. It was easy to see why I’ve had such a struggle. Neither Mom nor Dad was capable of being present. I was … Continue reading →

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Thanksgiving

Posted on November 28, 2019 by jenny

Today is Thanksgiving, and I was thinking how I’m thankful for so many things, but I’m not feeling gratitude for the headache I woke up with, or for the trouble with my eyes. It reminds me of a letter to … Continue reading →

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Grief for my Old Life

Posted on November 25, 2019 by jenny

Last week I was diagnosed with macular degeneration. It is the leading cause of blindness in people over 60. It can proceed at different rates. They told me that an intense dose of vitamins could help, so I got some … Continue reading →

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Seeing my Life Whole

Posted on November 15, 2019 by jenny

from my journal for November 11 On the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month, the Great War came to an end. But the war in Afghanistan is still going on. and it’s just part of the … Continue reading →

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Still Metabolizing a Profound Experience

Posted on November 11, 2019 by jenny

I haven’t posted in a long time. I’ve been continuing to process “Nights of Grief and Mystery,” and finding it very difficult to describe. Both the event itself, and how it changed me. I realize it’s going to take some time, … Continue reading →

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“World Order of Planet Savers”

Posted on October 26, 2019 by jenny

Thursday, October 24 Talk with a friend who insists that we were better off now than in the past. She talked about the great plagues, and serfs, and people being killed for sport. I wanted to say that we were … Continue reading →

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Early Writings

Posted on September 27, 2019 by jenny

Friday, September 27 Forgot to write that yesterday, in the middle of everything else — or maybe it was the day before — I got out some of my journal binders and started reading from the very first pieces. I … Continue reading →

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