Category Archives: Trauma

A Mature Sustainable Planetary Civilization

Posted on May 16, 2022 by jenny

May 6 was my last good day for a long time.  I got the book Choosing Earth, by Duane Elgin, and started reading it.  When facing a choice between truth and comfort, I go for truth, so I rarely get … Continue reading →

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Real Life is Bigger than Happiness

Posted on April 27, 2022 by jenny

From Ritual Year, written in May of 1993 May 13    Real life is bigger than happiness I was visited by an odd image which seemed to express my current state of soul:  The body of a woman lying in … Continue reading →

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Describing PTSD before I Knew I had it

Posted on April 23, 2022 by jenny

Reading through my journal for  1994, I came on these paragraphs. What’s fascinating is that I’m describing PTSD, but I have no idea that’s what’s going on. I do somehow know that I need to go in deeper, but have … Continue reading →

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A Midwife for the Divine

Posted on March 21, 2022 by jenny

I’ve been reading Cynthia Bourgeault’s book, The Wisdom Way of Knowing.  I’ve read it before, there are underlinings, but this time through something made much more sense to me.  Here are some quotes from Chapter VII: Seeing with the Eye … Continue reading →

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Inner Teacher

Posted on January 13, 2022 by jenny

I’ve been having a really hard time. We have a few COVID cases among the staff, so things have closed down a little. I think they are realizing that we are suffering from lack of connection, so they are not … Continue reading →

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That Twilight Feeling, reprise

Posted on December 31, 2021 by jenny

These two messages arrived at the end of the year. They speak to exactly how I’m feeling, which is very lonely, very sad, a sense that there is no meaning to my life, a kind of end-of-life version of That … Continue reading →

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Accept that this is the Reality of Who I am?

Posted on December 27, 2021 by jenny

I first heard about Claude Anshin Thomas in one of Richard Rohr’s daily meditations. He’s a Vietnam Vet who suffered from flashbacks that keep him from sleeping more than a couple of hours at a time.  He talks about realizing … Continue reading →

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Horrible Day

Posted on December 11, 2021 by jenny

I haven’t posted anything new to this blog since November 5.  I’ve been having a very hard time, partly due to struggling with a dead battery in my car, which first looked like it was problem with the electrical system. … Continue reading →

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Rescuing the Traumatized Baby

Posted on November 26, 2021 by jenny

This was first posted in July 2010 (Written in June 2004) In a session of the “Wave Work” at Kripalu: there was a confusing struggle with my body’s tendency to cramp up (esp left hand) and kick, shake, jump.  Finally … Continue reading →

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Write My Way Down to a Truth

Posted on November 5, 2021 by jenny

Thursday, November 4 Yesterday was an odd day. It felt disjointed somehow, things did not go smoothly or naturally. I think I kept want to “write my way down to a truth” and not getting to it until finally, just before 3:00 … Continue reading →

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