Category Archives: Trauma

Guidance from 2006

Posted on October 9, 2022 by jenny

This was written in October 2006 and posted in January 2011. It’s relevance to the present moment is absolutely astonishing. I also see truths that I didn’t believe at the time, especially the advice not to try to do activist … Continue reading →

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Exercise: Being Brave

Posted on October 4, 2022 by jenny

Pat Schneider says “Write something that feels too huge, or too dangerous, to tell.” p90 She gives a couple of examples, a short piece, a poem, where what’s really happening is revealed at the end. I thought I would try … Continue reading →

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Worldview

Posted on September 22, 2022 by jenny

I wrote this in December 2005 and first posted it on October 8, 2010. I wrote it deliberately as a vision for how I wanted to see my life, I didn’t believe it at all. Reading it today I am … Continue reading →

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Reframe of Vocation

Posted on September 21, 2022 by jenny

Several people have suggested to me that I had to change my story about being traumatized very early. I thought they meant I was supposed to make it be that I hadn’t been traumatized at all. This shift to seeing … Continue reading →

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A Role that No Longer Works

Posted on September 20, 2022 by jenny

From my journal for August 14 Writing assignment by Mark Matousek: A role you’re playing in your life today that no longer suits you and why. My role as a trauma victim.  That the wound of being left alone gets … Continue reading →

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Work with Angry Part and Protective Part

Posted on July 25, 2022 by jenny

I found this absolutely fascinating.  I was trying to work with parts, but I didn’t have the help of a therapist who knew about that work, and I didn’t know anything about the Internal Family Systems model yet. From my … Continue reading →

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Trying to Work with my “Enemy”

Posted on July 24, 2022 by jenny

It interests me to go back and read my old journals.  They remind me that I’ve been through an enormous amount of pain, and even managed to heal some of it.  I suffered from the noise phobia for 14 years, … Continue reading →

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My Prayer/Vision

Posted on July 17, 2022 by jenny

In February 2013, I was reintroduced to the importance of making a choice. I wrote: Feeling lonely and bereft of spirit. Recently I was introduced to the idea that faith is not good feelings, faith is a stand you can … Continue reading →

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Low Thyroid

Posted on July 3, 2022 by jenny

Found out from Dr. Vreeland that my thyroid is badly underfunctioning. This was about 10 days ago. Since then, I have stopped pushing myself. It was a relief to find that there was a physical reason for my difficulty waking … Continue reading →

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Guidance from Inner Teacher

Posted on June 12, 2022 by jenny

This surprised me a lot.  But it makes sense.  My uncomfortable feelings this morning were so strange.  I couldn’t figure them out and I’ve never felt this way before.  Here’s what I wrote this morning. 3rd cup. coffee.     … Continue reading →

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