Category Archives: Spirit

Christmas

Posted on December 25, 2023 by jenny

This was first posted on December 25, 2011 Christmas when I was growing up was mostly about presents and parties.  Our family had its ritual — stockings on our bed when we woke up, no access to the tree and … Continue reading →

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Blended with Non-verbal Parts

Posted on December 17, 2023 by jenny

Friday, December 8,  I asked Erica for an extra appointment because I was having such a hard time. I’m being unable to say anything when I’m with my friends, and I imagine they are judging me for it. I tell … Continue reading →

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Gratitude

Posted on December 15, 2023 by jenny

It wasn’t until December 8 that I checked Feedspot’s list of 80 best blogs on PTSD.  I was astounded to find that I was #15, and they said something wonderful about my blog. Jenny Deupree is a writer and artist … Continue reading →

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1995: I Need a Floor

Posted on November 7, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for December 15, 1995 I went into the session with Karen feeling completely hopeless.  I didn’t know what else to do, so I lay down on the bed and kicked and kicked and cried and shouted “No!”  I … Continue reading →

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1995: First Dance in Neskaya

Posted on November 5, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for December 11, 1995 And now for something completely different!  I’m feeling much better this morning.  I find it interesting how easily and completely I can flip from “depressed” to “normal” under certain conditions.  Yesterday we danced … Continue reading →

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Obstreperous Child

Posted on October 29, 2023 by jenny

The Daily Good today  (10/22/23) was an essay by Francis Weller on grief. When I first heard about his work from my therapist, I went to a retreat on the west coast. But I have been struggling with a lot … Continue reading →

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“I gave my life energy to sacred meaning”

Posted on October 25, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for October 18 Feeling weird.  Woke up feeling weird.  Not sure I can describe it.  I don’t think I have a fever, I found my thermometer, but will have to wait, because I already had a drink. At the thought … Continue reading →

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Help from Inner Teacher

Posted on October 22, 2023 by jenny

Written on Sunday, October 22 Dear Inner Teacher, I’m feeling very lost, my brain is sluggish.  I desperately need help. Dear Jenny, know that many spirits love you.  If you can’t do anything practical except the minimum — feeding yourself … Continue reading →

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“to reteach a thing its loveliness…”

Posted on October 18, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group on Monday, October 17: Met Gwen & Sandra near the stairs — said I was having a hard time.  They both hugged me, asked if I felt loved.  I said yes. Won’t you look down upon … Continue reading →

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“This time it’s all of us or none”

Posted on October 13, 2023 by jenny

Puerto Rican Jewish poet and activist Aurora Levins Morales poem “Red Sea”: We cannot cross until we carry each other, all of us refugees, all of us prophets. No more taking turns on history’s wheel, trying to collect old debts … Continue reading →

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