Category Archives: Journal

From 1994: “Choose to be Happy”

Posted on April 11, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for October 30, 1994 Woke feeling very depressed.  Hard to get out of bed.  Told myself it was just chemicals in my body and I had to go on with my life.  Held it up “as prayer.”  … Continue reading →

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From 1994: Prayer? Paradigm Shift? Manifestation?

Posted on April 7, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for October 26, 1994 I’ve been wanting to pray, but not knowing who to pray to, or even what to pray for.  I finally asked for clarity: to see the truth; for courage: to act on what … Continue reading →

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Collapse Phase

Posted on February 15, 2023 by jenny

I knew I needed to ask a couple of people for some practical help: to deal with medical insurance and how to work my new phone. I wasn’t until I was terrified by the strange noise the phone made when … Continue reading →

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Tong-len

Posted on January 31, 2023 by jenny

Written in Writing Group: Woke up this morning feeling sad, lonely, discouraged.  Then I thought that there must be a lot of lonely old women, without family, who wake up feeling like that.  Feeling the presence of all these people … Continue reading →

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Letter to My Mother

Posted on January 20, 2023 by jenny

This was written in writing group January 9. Another piece of unfinished business. Dear Mom, I’m writing to tell you I’m sorry I always acted so angrily when you were drunk.  I had no idea what you were up against.  … Continue reading →

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Self-Compassion

Posted on January 17, 2023 by jenny

This is from my journal for November 27.  I just typed it up, and am finding it VERY helpful. Dear Inner Teacher, I am having a very hard time.  Feeling miserable.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, Remember that you are … Continue reading →

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From 1994: “This miserable wimp is herself my task”

Posted on December 31, 2022 by jenny

From my journal for September 1994, about a session with my therapist Karen: I wanted to focus on that feeling that it’s not OK to protect myself from the noise of the planes by wearing the walkman.  We explored all … Continue reading →

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From 1994: Seeing How Hard My Life has Been

Posted on December 25, 2022 by jenny

From my journal for September 1994 O gosh, I feel so sad and bummed out.  I see lots of things I “should” do, organizing house type things, and I feel “what’s the use.”  The planes haven’t been too bad so … Continue reading →

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March 1976: The Journal is Center

Posted on December 14, 2022 by jenny

First posted on July 2, 2012 from my journal, written in March 1976 Today I felt very depressed and sick.  The old fear came back, fear of the ringing phone, of the sun and wind outside.  I went looking for … Continue reading →

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Unfinished Business with my Ex-Husband

Posted on November 25, 2022 by jenny

I didn’t write this in my writing group, I wrote it on February 9, 2022 Last night I was reading Composing a Life and she talked about how people could still maintain a relationship after divorce, and I thought about … Continue reading →

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