Category Archives: Trauma

Fragile and Lost

Posted on February 13, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2009) So how am I feeling?  Fragile and lost.  Not quite as easy to be with as it was on Sunday. I actually felt very strange last night after I got back from dance — lost, not … Continue reading →

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Bodymind Work with Kevin

Posted on February 9, 2011 by jenny

(Written in September 2007) Very interesting work with Kevin.  I described the headache.  He decided to be “provocative” — first moving my legs around the hip sockets, then doing some work on the “belly wall” — can’t remember if I … Continue reading →

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Feeling like an Abandoned Baby

Posted on February 6, 2011 by jenny

(Written in March 2007) Bleak and cold.  No warmth no love anywhere.  I tell myself this is what an infant feels when Mom is gone. Another possibility is that this coldness represents a defense against a worse pain — I … Continue reading →

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Living with Debilitating Chronic Illness

Posted on February 4, 2011 by jenny

(Written in January 2007) I’ve been thinking more thoughts at R, trying once again to explain what my life is like.  From the perspective that Kayla understood, that what I’m up against is a physiological process, not psychological or emotional, … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on January 29, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2006) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling very bummed out. I’m completely discouraged by the political situation, I’m scared that if the future gets really bad I’m not robust enough to survive. And at the moment … Continue reading →

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Reading Journal

Posted on January 18, 2011 by jenny

(Written in February 2005) I’ve been reading from October 2003 and it’s fascinating. My whole struggle with terror & despair is laid out moment by moment, sensation by sensation. I can read it now that I feel OK, now that … Continue reading →

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I have a good life…

Posted on January 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2010) I have a really good life. I live in a beautiful place, I have meaningful work, I don’t need to have my life be any different before I can enjoy it. I got a taste of … Continue reading →

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Lonely

Posted on January 9, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2009) I’m feeling bleak. I haven’t been able to connect with any of the people on my support team. Beverly D called late yesterday in response to my message. We had a good talk. She’d love to … Continue reading →

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Guidance & More About Katie

Posted on January 8, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2009) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling pretty discouraged, and badly disconnected from the strong and healthy parts of my life. Can you help me? Dear Jenny, we love you. This is temporary, you will come … Continue reading →

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Book About “Katie”

Posted on January 5, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2009) I started reading a book Lynelle got on interlibrary loan: Daniel Hughes “Building the Bonds of Attachment.” It’s a fictional account of “Katie” who was abused and neglected in her family of origin, and was so … Continue reading →

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