Category Archives: Trauma

Experience of Taking Paxil

Posted on June 5, 2024 by jenny

Back in March I posted part of my journal from February 1996 that describes seeing Dr. Brunette to ask about anti-depressant medication. She prescribed Paxil, since I felt very untrusting of Prozac. I had a terrible experience. The notes I … Continue reading →

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One Wild and Precious Life

Posted on June 2, 2024 by jenny

First posted in August 2010: I was thinking about the line from Mary Oliver: “What will you do with your one wild and precious life?” and how it always makes me feel bad, like I have wasted mine. Well, have … Continue reading →

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“I am Not a Bad Person, Bad Things Happened to Me”

Posted on May 19, 2024 by jenny

I am so tired and so discouraged. Set the timer for 15 minutes to meditate. Immediately my heart started to hurt. Instead of trying to make it go away, I offered it as prayer. The first time I’ve been able to … Continue reading →

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Lost, Discouraged, without Resources or Support

Posted on May 11, 2024 by jenny

I have been having a very hard time because I haven’t been able to sleep unless I take a drug, which I’ve now taken for almost a month, and shouldn’t take for very long. But if I don’t take it, … Continue reading →

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“All Shall Be Well”

Posted on April 13, 2024 by jenny

The combination of early trauma and the possibility of cancer has been totally disruptive. I have been having a very hard time sleeping. At least three nights when I didn’t sleep at all, and most nights waking at 2 or … Continue reading →

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Today

Posted on April 11, 2024 by jenny

I’m having a really bad time this week. Last night I didn’t sleep at all. I’ve been sleeping very badly, but not sleeping at all is a disaster. Erica is away this week, so I don’t have her help. I’ve … Continue reading →

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Amazing Conclusion from Horrendous Experience

Posted on March 23, 2024 by jenny

I’ve just been rereading a blog post containing a long passage from 1996. It comes from the journal volumes that I wrote but stopped typing in 1995, because I realized that the book I was putting together from journal entries, … Continue reading →

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1996: Dr. Brunette & Prescription for Paxil

Posted on March 19, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for February 7, 1996 I’m feeling some fear, most likely I’m scared of seeing Dr. Brunette this afternoon. I find that I’m really terrified at the idea of taking an anti-depressant for the rest of my life. … Continue reading →

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Blank, Empty, Dead

Posted on March 13, 2024 by jenny

Written in writing group on Monday, March 11: I’m scared. Why should I be scared to write? Nothing to say. Talk about fear. Well, it comes and goes. I don’t find much else to think about. Even had trouble writing … Continue reading →

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Wanting to be Connected to Spirit

Posted on March 12, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for Saturday, March 9 I realized, walking Mocha, that it’s not dying I’m afraid of but living. After two months with a sore knee, having to use a walker and a cane, and now facing an operation, … Continue reading →

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