Category Archives: Trauma

Blind Terror

Posted on February 5, 2020 by jenny

What a strange experience.  I’m not even sure I can write about it accurately.  I thought my brain had stopped working.  I was afraid it had to do with getting old.  Erica reframed it as a stage in spiritual growth, … Continue reading →

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Stunted Tree

Posted on January 25, 2020 by jenny

I have just been to a retreat in Burlington.  Winter Wonder: A Circle of Trust Retreat.  It was quite wonderful and helped a lot with the emptiness and confusion I’ve been feeling.  “Circle of Trust” is based on the work … Continue reading →

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Anatomy of a Breakdown

Posted on January 20, 2020 by jenny

I’ve been reading through my blog from the very beginning.  I am once again in the 12 year cycle, at a time when Jupiter in the sky is opposed Jupiter’s position when I was born.  Ever since 1972 I have … Continue reading →

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The Pit Crumbles

Posted on December 16, 2019 by jenny

In my Friday talk session with Erica, I told her about the Pit, sitting in it with Younger Jenny, describing how deep it was, how narrow, made entirely of stone.  She said “What does it feel like to sit there … Continue reading →

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Turnaround in the Pit

Posted on December 14, 2019 by jenny

I’ve been feeling like a combination of the Dan Siegel material, the diagnosis of macular degeneration, and reading my early journals brought me to a place where I feel beyond redemption.  I think of this as the Pit, a deep … Continue reading →

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Spending Time at the Bottom of the Pit

Posted on December 10, 2019 by jenny

Friday morning, November 29, I watched a Dan Siegel talk on “Presence, Parenting, and Planet.”  It was great.  It was easy to see why I’ve had such a struggle.  Neither Mom nor Dad was capable of being present.  I was … Continue reading →

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Grief for my Old Life

Posted on November 25, 2019 by jenny

Last week I was diagnosed with macular degeneration.  It is the leading cause of blindness in people over 60.  It can proceed at different rates.  They told me that an intense dose of vitamins could help, so I got some … Continue reading →

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“World Order of Planet Savers”

Posted on October 26, 2019 by jenny

Thursday, October 24 Talk with a friend who insists that we were better off now than in the past.  She talked about the great plagues, and serfs, and people being killed for sport.  I wanted to say that we were … Continue reading →

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Looking at Jenny from Outside

Posted on October 19, 2019 by jenny

I have been struggling with the question of whether I “love” life.  It’s something Stephen Jenkinson talks about, something that can become very strong when you realize that you are really going to die.  I hear people say they love … Continue reading →

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Early Writings

Posted on September 27, 2019 by jenny

Friday, September 27 Forgot to write that yesterday, in the middle of everything else — or maybe it was the day before — I got out some of my journal binders and started reading from the very first pieces.  I … Continue reading →

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