Monthly Archives: May 2011

Compassion

Posted on May 20, 2011 by jenny

(Written in December 2008) Got up at 6 feeling very bleak.  Trying to bring compassion to wretched Bella — I was angry at her for not letting me sleep — and to my miserable self — I turned to the … Continue reading →

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Too Much Pain

Posted on May 19, 2011 by jenny

(Written in December 2008) I’m at a retreat with Jack Kornfield at Kripalu.  The last time I came it was very helpful, but this time it isn’t working. This is just being too hard.  I’m wondering if I should leave … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on May 18, 2011 by jenny

(Written in December 2008) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’ve been feeling bleak and sad and my heart has been hurting a lot.  I’ve been doing my best to surrender to it instead of resist it.  What do you think? … Continue reading →

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Genesis II

Posted on May 17, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Yesterday evening I kept reading Fox & Sheldrake (Natural Grace) and was reconnected with a wonderful vision of the shamanic realm: overlapping morphogenetic fields, overlapping souls, all of us intricately interconnected.  There was a discussion of … Continue reading →

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Via Negativa

Posted on May 16, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Reading Natural Grace by Sheldrake & Fox.  I started the chapter on prayer and found Matthew Fox on the via negativa: “The negative way is the way of darkness, suffering, silence, letting go, and even nothingness.  … Continue reading →

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Heart Hurting

Posted on May 15, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Woke up with my heart hurting.  At first I made it be that I was bad and selfish and stingy that my heart was so cramped.  Then I thought perhaps my heart hurt so much because … Continue reading →

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Trauma

Posted on May 14, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) I was getting ready to go to Lore (my art therapist), but didn’t have much to take for the Retablo project I wanted to work on, I could feel the possibility of being torn apart, my … Continue reading →

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Self Love

Posted on May 13, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) So it looks like, right now, Spirit is forcing me to cocoon, to pull inward, to face the hard and difficult task of learning to love myself in all of my confusion, pain, passion and generosity.  … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on May 12, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling pretty bummed out.  I have short times of feeling OK, but it doesn’t last.  Can you help me? Dear Jenny, we love you, we love you very much.  Actually … Continue reading →

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Breakdown, continued

Posted on May 11, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008.  After having a very bad time in August-September of 2008, I had a little respite in October & then things got bad again in late November.) Trouble eating yesterday, slept badly last night.  It’s 10° out.  … Continue reading →

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