Category Archives: Depression

Guidance

Posted on September 11, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) O spirits, I’m in a profoundly bleak and despairing place.  I’ve been trying to work with my pain as Greenspan suggests, I’ve been dancing, writing, and painting my pain as well as breathing through the heart.  … Continue reading →

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Despair

Posted on September 7, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Tried the Heart Flow again but nearly fell asleep so I got up & danced hoping it would help.  The damn dog next door with the high-pitched bark irritates me — I try to bring compassion … Continue reading →

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Compassion for myself

Posted on September 6, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Put on the Oratorium CD.  Sitting on the floor, moving with grief, pain in the heart, lack of hope — walking out into the desert with the fragments of a culture, knowing that it’s most likely … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on September 5, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Dear Spirits, I’m so angry at myself for creating all this misery.  Please help me!  Please!     Dear Jenny, you are being much too hard on yourself.  This is why you really need a spiritual community … Continue reading →

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Grieving

Posted on September 4, 2011 by jenny

(Written in October 2003) Took Bella up Rte 3.  I carried my painfully tight grieving heart and paid attention to my feet on the path and the colored leaves.  Sat by Skoogumchuk Brook for a little bit.  Was able to … Continue reading →

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Choice

Posted on September 2, 2011 by jenny

(Written in August 2003) I think a big chunk of the sadness I’m feeling is seeing how we humans struggle in the midst of so many forces pulling different ways, and we know so little about these forces, and we … Continue reading →

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Torah of Jenny

Posted on August 31, 2011 by jenny

The “Torah of Jenny” was a project that I started with an art therapist, Lore Caldwell, who I was seeing in Littleton.  She started me with a roll of brown paper, and it turned out to be my life as … Continue reading →

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Depression/Demoralization

Posted on August 4, 2011 by jenny

I was pretty much in low-grade fear all day yesterday.  I was able to cry a little, sitting with Eleanor.   I can feel a pain and coldness in my heart right now.    My heart really aches.  I feel sad and … Continue reading →

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Grief Work

Posted on July 1, 2011 by jenny

(Written in April 2009) Called Beverly to see if she would be willing to do some grief work with me.  She was, so I started reading from the beginning.  She challenged the idea that Mom & Granny & Gramp had … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on June 28, 2011 by jenny

Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling a little down — very low energy.  There are things I’d like to do — make more jizos, paint, work on earth & fire, do a little gardening and I just don’t have … Continue reading →

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