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Category Archives: Trauma
1996: Grief About Neglect When I was a Baby
From my journal for February 2, 1996 I spent most of my session with Karen crying. I told her about the awful pain I woke with Tuesday morning and how everything that I could hold on to had disappeared. I … Continue reading
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1996: First Hint of Early Trauma
These notes are from my journal for January 30, 1996. I’ve clearly had a very bad night. I haven’t been able to find the previous notebook, so I don’t know what else I might have said. But my reference to … Continue reading
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“Thinking Makes it So”?
This is from The Art of Stillness, by Pico Iyer As Marcus Aurelius reminded us more than two Millennia ago, it’s not our experiences that form us but the ways in which you respond to them; a hurricane sweeps through … Continue reading
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Rescuing the Baby on the Garbage Can
from my journal for December 9 Erica said my system is so open that the moment I unbend, and see the part as separate from me, I offer a hug and the exile runs into my arms. All my life … Continue reading
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Knee Trouble — Last Straw
My knee first started to hurt on December 20. I have no idea what caused it. It started with some really bad jabs of pain. The pain was in the muscles in the back of the knee. Walking without bending … Continue reading
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1996: Early Thoughts on “Trauma”
From my journal for January 10, 1996 Visit to Hart, the naturopath. I told her that I was struggling with depression. … We talked about suicide a little, I said I felt even about that “it won’t do any good.” … Continue reading
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1996: Spending Time in Hell
From my journal for January 8, 1996 What’s being most discouraging at the present moment is having no positive feelings — I can’t remember what it was like to feel love. There’s not even a clear pain, like grief or … Continue reading
Blended with Non-verbal Parts
Friday, December 8, I asked Erica for an extra appointment because I was having such a hard time. I’m being unable to say anything when I’m with my friends, and I imagine they are judging me for it. I tell … Continue reading
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Effort to Connect with Baby: Scribble Drawings
This was last edited on November 27. I didn’t post it because I got caught up in the work with scribble drawings. From my journal for Thursday, November 23 When I went out with Mocha it was still sunny, and … Continue reading
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Complexity: Dealing with a Number of Parts
I’ve been going over my journal since before Thanksgiving, trying to make sense of the journey I’ve been on. As I read over it, I see a number of possible parts that I might be blended with. This is complicated … Continue reading
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