Category Archives: Spirit

A New Look at the “Voice from the Past”

Posted on July 3, 2023 by jenny

Found a passage written in June of ‘96, when I was in the pit of despair & trying to find things to help me hold on.  I posted it in May 2010.  I’ve since posted pieces of it with commentary … Continue reading →

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Etty Hillesum and “God”

Posted on July 2, 2023 by jenny

I have been reading the Letters and Diary of Etty Hillesum.  She was a Dutch Jew, and began writing a journal at the suggestion of Julius Spier, who was her teacher, therapist, and lover.  She died in Auschwitz in November … Continue reading →

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Confused and Miserable

Posted on June 20, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group last night: I’ve been so confused.  Feeling miserable.  Can’t identify feelings.  I’ve been at cross-purposes with Mocha.  I wanted to go over to Rivercrest and she did her thing of crouching and pulling back.  So we … Continue reading →

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Not up to the Magnitude of the Pain

Posted on June 14, 2023 by jenny

My sweet companion Mocha has been diagnosed with a condition that will ultimately paralyze her back legs. I am overwhelmed with pain and grief. I am not being able to carry this pain with joy. “Let go of any bitterness … Continue reading →

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The Real Universe

Posted on June 5, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for June 3, 1996, and posted in May 2010: But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how it matches my … Continue reading →

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Working to remember “My Prayer”

Posted on June 1, 2023 by jenny

This morning I woke up feeling utterly unloved and hopeless, in a world where there is no spirit.  The song in my head is “Diamonds and Rust,” Joan Baez’s amazing song about her love affair with Bob Dylan.  I listened … Continue reading →

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Conversations with the Inner Teacher

Posted on April 17, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for Saturday, April 15 Dear Inner Teacher, I’m feeling very odd, and have been making some “mistakes” tho I’m not getting upset about them.  I do seem to have let go of trying to do everything “right.”  … Continue reading →

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“Let myself be myself”

Posted on April 14, 2023 by jenny

I’ve just been typing my journal from March 19 and came across this: I’ve been reading Rohr’s book on the 12 steps.  I feel so odd.  It seems like I’m already doing it, but if I am I should be … Continue reading →

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From 1994: Prayer? Paradigm Shift? Manifestation?

Posted on April 7, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for October 26, 1994 I’ve been wanting to pray, but not knowing who to pray to, or even what to pray for.  I finally asked for clarity: to see the truth; for courage: to act on what … Continue reading →

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Three Important Realizations

Posted on March 25, 2023 by jenny

I had three very important realizations this last week.  From my journal: Monday, March 20 Reading Rohr on the twelve steps, can’t remember which step it is.  You’re supposed to tell to another person and to God the things you … Continue reading →

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