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Category Archives: Present Day
Forgiveness
I have been reading Christina Baldwin’s book called Life’s Companion; Journal Writing as a Spiritual Quest. In the chapter on Forgiveness she describes what happens to people who refuse to forgive, and what happens to people who are not forgiven. I … Continue reading
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Not up to the Magnitude of the Pain
My sweet companion Mocha has been diagnosed with a condition that will ultimately paralyze her back legs. I am overwhelmed with pain and grief. I am not being able to carry this pain with joy. “Let go of any bitterness … Continue reading
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The Real Universe
From my journal for June 3, 1996, and posted in May 2010: But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how it matches my … Continue reading
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Working to remember “My Prayer”
This morning I woke up feeling utterly unloved and hopeless, in a world where there is no spirit. The song in my head is “Diamonds and Rust,” Joan Baez’s amazing song about her love affair with Bob Dylan. I listened … Continue reading
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My Life as a “Great Adventure”
Written in writing group on April 24. I remember how it used to upset me when people talked about “being grateful for the gift of life.” I felt like the “gift” came to me smashed, it wasn’t a gift at … Continue reading
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“A deep well of sadness”
Writing done in group on Monday, May 15 A well of unprocessed grief “To be met!” That’s what I said when I was doing somatic experiencing with Peter Payne. He also did body work and I was sitting on his … Continue reading
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“Both very good and very bad”
From my journal for Saturday, May 13 So much color in the world! Flowering trees — dark pink flowers with dark red leaves, white flowers so thick they hide the leaves — alas I saw no bees today. Tulips, so … Continue reading
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A Well of Unprocessed Grief
For a number of days I’ve been feeling really awful. Empty and meaningless, lost in a world where there is no depth or soul. In writers group on Monday I tried to describe it. I thought maybe I was picking … Continue reading
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Interweavings
I wrote this in writers group on May 1. I wasn’t really happy with it, it didn’t flow easily as “left-hand writings” did in the past. But the group liked it, which made me cry. So I post it here. … Continue reading
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Endure without Relief
This is a repost of something originally posted in January 2017: Grey again and another dusting of snow. It feels like it has been like this for weeks. Woke up feeling very lonely. Tried without success to feel love for … Continue reading
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