Category Archives: Present Day

Intense Work with Parts

Posted on March 22, 2024 by jenny

Intense therapy session with Erica.  We did some parts work which I found very complex and confusing at the time, and I was upset when it ended.  But reading back over my notes, I was able to make a lot … Continue reading →

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Alone, Cold, Empty

Posted on March 20, 2024 by jenny

Written in writing group, Monday, March 18 Well.  What’s going on?  I’ve been scared a lot this morning.  Mostly I’m worried about not being able to deal with complex arrangements around my surgery.  Not having to do with the surgery … Continue reading →

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Blank, Empty, Dead

Posted on March 13, 2024 by jenny

Written in writing group on Monday, March 11: I’m scared.  Why should I be scared to write?  Nothing to say.  Talk about fear.  Well, it comes and goes.  I don’t find much else to think about.  Even had trouble writing … Continue reading →

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Wanting to be Connected to Spirit

Posted on March 12, 2024 by jenny

From my journal for Saturday, March 9 I realized, walking Mocha, that it’s not dying I’m afraid of but living.  After two months with a sore knee, having to use a walker and a cane, and now facing an operation, … Continue reading →

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“What have I done with my life?”

Posted on March 8, 2024 by jenny

Last week, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I talked to the surgeon and liked her very much. I also trusted her. The surgery will happen at the end of this month. It sounds like it will be just a … Continue reading →

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Turning Toward What’s Difficult

Posted on March 5, 2024 by jenny

I listened to a podcast of Tami Simon interviewing Tsultrim Allione, who started a Buddhist retreat center in Colorado, and did a lot of work to bring the feminine into Buddhism.  She talked about facing and incorporating the bad, a practice … Continue reading →

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An “Emanation” of a Great Being

Posted on March 3, 2024 by jenny

The Sounds True podcast of Tami Simon interviewing Lama Tsultrim Allione was quite amazing, in fact I’ve read the transcript more than once. Tsultrim Allione talks about being told she was an “emanation” of an 11th century Tibetan yogini named Machig Lahdrön. … Continue reading →

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Talk with Youngest Part

Posted on February 18, 2024 by jenny

At least I think/feel it’s the youngest. She can’t talk so I have to sense her feelings. I was reading James Hollis’s book What Matters Most, and got to the part where he talks about doing what your soul wants … Continue reading →

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Trauma Survivors have Difficulty Experiencing Love

Posted on February 14, 2024 by jenny

This is from Gretchen Schmelzer’s blog: For those of you who have been hurt or who grew up with trauma you may know the word love, but you may not understand what it means. Or maybe you understand what it … Continue reading →

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Help from Inner Teacher

Posted on February 10, 2024 by jenny

Written today. Looking back, I see that I’ve only written one post about the knee pain. Reading it reminds me that my early trauma can trigger me into feeling more helpless than I am. After one week of feeling considerably … Continue reading →

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