Category Archives: Present Day

Gaslighting, Again

Posted on August 10, 2019 by jenny

This actually starts with me being caught by a scam.  It involved an email from a woman I know slightly here at Kendal.  It involved a request to buy 3 $100 iTunes for her grandson.  I said I really couldn’t … Continue reading →

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Dark Night of the Soul, Again

Posted on August 8, 2019 by jenny

Saturday, August 3 3rd cup of tea.  When I went out to walk Mocha, my legs felt very weak.  I decided I needed grounding, so tried to feel my legs and my feet contacting the earth.  Mocha went down the … Continue reading →

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The Pain/Grief Underneath

Posted on August 2, 2019 by jenny

Pulled out of that dead place quickly, Thank You! First thing that helped was telling my friend Elizabeth.  She made sympathetic noises and told me she loved me, always much more helpful than making suggestions for how to get out. … Continue reading →

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Another Sojourn in the Pit

Posted on August 1, 2019 by jenny

Journal for Thursday, August 1 3rd cup of tea:  It was beautiful outside when I walked Mocha, cool, sunny, sparkling.  But I could not experience it.  This mood doesn’t have the weight of depression, it’s more a sense of why … Continue reading →

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3rd Cup of Tea

Posted on July 31, 2019 by jenny

This 3rd cup writing illustrates another principle I use in my life:  I take a lot of things that happen as signs from the universe or spirit or whoever.  For example, if I’m thinking something particular and a bird lands … Continue reading →

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About 3rd Cup of Tea Writing

Posted on July 29, 2019 by jenny

My usual morning routine is to make a cup of tea, write while drinking it, make a second and do the same.  Then I usually have a smoothie with fiber in it, feed the dog, get dressed, make my own … Continue reading →

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Trying to Figure out WHY I Got So Terrified

Posted on July 26, 2019 by jenny

Excerpts from my journal trying to understand about the terrified feeling, what triggered it, why it seemed different from how it has happened before.  The last time I felt that kind of terror was when I flew to California for … Continue reading →

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Two Whole Weeks of Terror, February 1971

Posted on July 25, 2019 by jenny

from my journal.  entries are undated.  A lot of this is in a post from January 2016 how calmly does the olive branch observe the sky begin to blanch without a cry, without a prayer with no betrayal of despair…  … Continue reading →

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Today’s 3rd Cup of Tea

Posted on July 24, 2019 by jenny

Maybe the feeling of abandonment was more intense because Dulany has become a good friend.  Erica pointed out that my relationship with Eleanor is problematic because she triggered the big sister’s need to take care of younger siblings, and she … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on July 22, 2019 by jenny

Saturday, July 20 Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I am having a very hard time.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, your fear has been triggered and you are very much in a baby state.  You are feeling pretty completely helpless.  … Continue reading →

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