Category Archives: Journal

Reading Old Journals

Posted on September 1, 2011 by jenny

(Written in 2003) I’m reading from the beginning of ‘97.  Mostly writing down affirmations that I don’t believe.  I’m clearly in pretty bad shape.  I can also see how badly my husband let me down, how he was distancing himself. … Continue reading →

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The View from the Present

Posted on July 27, 2011 by jenny

Yesterday’s post, from 2005, gives me a sense of how far I’ve come, how much I’ve healed.  Events have taken place at Neskaya that were a fulfillment of my vision that was so far beyond any expectation that I had … Continue reading →

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Breakdown, continued

Posted on May 11, 2011 by jenny

(Written in November 2008.  After having a very bad time in August-September of 2008, I had a little respite in October & then things got bad again in late November.) Trouble eating yesterday, slept badly last night.  It’s 10° out.  … Continue reading →

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Perennial Journal Project

Posted on April 19, 2011 by jenny

Bound for Freedom was put together from two journal entries from June 2008.  I left out this paragraph: New Autobiography: How I went from traumatized baby to Shambhala Warrior in 5? or was it 7 difficult years.  It’s so amazing … Continue reading →

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Collages

Posted on March 27, 2011 by jenny

I was talking to a friend about a workshop in “Soul Collage” and it reminded me of some collages I’d done a long time ago.  I found the book, I think these were done in 1991.  What’s amazing to me … Continue reading →

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Radiant Priestess

Posted on March 3, 2011 by jenny

(This was written in July 2008, just before I crashed really badly.  I had been feeling so much better, and I thought I had “really gotten there” i.e. arrived at a place of health and strength.  But I was actually … Continue reading →

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Reading Old Journals

Posted on March 2, 2011 by jenny

(Written in July 2008) Reading 1987 is fascinating and painful.  I’m struggling with the plane phobia — doing a lot that I hope will help: DMA Structural Consulting, David Grove Workshop, NLP — also blaming myself and trying to figure … Continue reading →

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Angry at Myself

Posted on November 29, 2010 by jenny

(Written in April 2009) Woke scared & sad. I really fell apart inside yesterday. I’m sure it’s because everybody’s leaving. We just had a wonderful weekend of training in Women’s Ritual Dances with Laura Shannon. I’m also feeling a lot … Continue reading →

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Journal Work

Posted on November 25, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) What would it be like if I believed that I was a good person who was doing her best to do good in the world? I can feel an odd softening, almost tingling in my heart. … Continue reading →

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Stories

Posted on November 3, 2010 by jenny

I’ve been thinking a lot about stories recently. Stories that strengthen us, and stories that just dig us deeper into the mud. It’s very important to be able to distinguish helpful stories from unhelpful ones, because it’s the story that … Continue reading →

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