Category Archives: Journal

Breakdown in Davis

Posted on November 3, 2014 by jenny

I’ve mentioned the breakdown in Davis more than once, but never told the whole story.  My good friend Kathi moved to Davis to go to Nursing School, and I followed her.  The environmental movement was just gearing up — it … Continue reading →

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October Sadness

Posted on October 11, 2014 by jenny

So sad yesterday.  Missing Bella, missing Erica if truth be told, and mourning for all the other wounds opened up.  October in the rain, tho it wasn’t raining, just grey. Met Lynelle in Hunger Mountain Co-op in Montpelier.  I’d picked … Continue reading →

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Past Misery

Posted on August 29, 2014 by jenny

I don’t really want to write down all the details of yesterday. I think I’d rather explore some topic. This is a change. Possibly it started with the work with Erica. I know this writing is a daily discipline, possibly … Continue reading →

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“Remedial Joy” Stories

Posted on June 4, 2014 by jenny

This suggestion is from Martha Beck, Finding your own North Star, pp214-215 She says “If you can’t cast your mind back to experiences that make you thrill with joy, you’re due for some remedial work.”  So I went back and … Continue reading →

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Rocky Road

Posted on January 23, 2014 by jenny

I try to type up a journal entry about a month after it was written — unless I write something I want to share right away.  Normally, I wouldn’t post something like this, but I think it gives a very … Continue reading →

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Journal Work: Trying to Understand Myself

Posted on December 1, 2013 by jenny

Reading Rob Bell about Jesus:  “Over and over again we see him going to the edges, to the margins, to those in trouble, those despised, those no one else would touch, those who were ignored, the weak, the blind, the … Continue reading →

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Treating the Pain like an Honored Guest

Posted on August 31, 2013 by jenny

Friday My heart aches.  This is the other side of loving Bella.  I accept the ache as the price of loving.  I would not choose to refuse the love in order to avoid the pain.  I put my arms around … Continue reading →

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Journal Writing as a Spiritual Practice

Posted on August 22, 2013 by jenny

I’ve been keeping a journal since 1959.  Sometime in late 1991 I read Natalie Goldberg’s Writing Down the Bones, and really liked the idea of “writing practice.”  I saw that it was pretty much what I was already doing.  I … Continue reading →

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Feeling Good About Myself

Posted on August 21, 2013 by jenny

(Written in July 2009) I think of Elizabeth’s letter to me [10/25/05] where she talks about my commitment, my vision and my generosity.  I remember when I first read it, I had a wonderful feeling of “I’ve done it.  I’ve … Continue reading →

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Amazing Self-Love

Posted on August 20, 2013 by jenny

It’s been tough, trying to negotiate this terrain of the ending of my relationship with Bella.  It occurs to me that I will continue to have a relationship with her spirit, but I will badly miss the furry object who … Continue reading →

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