Category Archives: Journal

Doing the Only Thing I Can Do

Posted on November 13, 2016 by jenny

Hatred will not cease by hatred, But only by love. This is an ancient and eternal law. — The Buddha I woke up this morning with a burning heart, and sat with grief and fear while trying to write.  “Mocha … Continue reading →

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Words for Survival

Posted on November 12, 2016 by jenny

It was 1996, the Summer from Hell.  In February I had tried Paxil for 5 days while my terror shot through the roof & got worse & worse until the 5th night when I didn’t sleep at all.  So I … Continue reading →

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Writings about Mother

Posted on October 24, 2016 by jenny

I’ve been writing a lot, both on my own and with writing groups I’ve started.  I want to use some of them as blog posts. The first memory I have of my mother involves some tiny clear plastic animals.  I … Continue reading →

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Mother and Denial

Posted on October 22, 2016 by jenny

I’ve been doing a lot of writings on specific subjects.  I’d like to start turning them into blog posts.  I’ve got quite a lot about my mother.  Still struggling with not being able to forgive her.  I’ve forgiven her for … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Understand

Posted on July 22, 2016 by jenny

Little bits of the past come up, and it’s so painful.  I was remembering when Daddy dislocated his shoulder riding, and Granpappy’s palomino Rey del Oro and how I would call him “Ray Dell” in teenage fashion — or so … Continue reading →

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Hope in the Dark

Posted on July 13, 2016 by jenny

Hope in the Dark by Rebecca Solnit I don’t know what turned me on to her.  I refused to order the book from Amazon, just a small protest.  They forced our wonderful local bookstore to close.  I ordered from Green Arcade … Continue reading →

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Week of Terror

Posted on July 11, 2016 by jenny

I’ve just been through a week of terror.  Lots of possible triggers.  I haven’t had this bad a bout of terror for many years. Tuesday, June 28 I’m feeling terrified.  I was reading Deborah Crombie and felt scared while I … Continue reading →

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Journal Work

Posted on July 10, 2016 by jenny

I found this draft when I went to the dashboard to work on another post.  I suspect I didn’t post it because I ended up still feeling bad.  Reading it over again, I realized that the first time, in 2014, … Continue reading →

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Writers for Recovery

Posted on July 2, 2016 by jenny

I went to the second night of a ten-week workshop, called Writers for Recovery.  It had been put together by Bess O’Brien, who produced Journey Into Courage, and grew out of the documentary on addiction, The Hungry Heart, that she was … Continue reading →

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Who am I really?

Posted on May 27, 2016 by jenny

Written in my journal for May 7, after the event (“Continuing the Journey”) where I talked about what I had learned both while and after being part of Journey into Courage.  Some scenes from the video were shown.  Other women … Continue reading →

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