Category Archives: Journal

Acceptance of Pain

Posted on March 21, 2020 by jenny

from my journal for July 23, 1976: amazing! miraculous! out of the depression and into an energy high. am weaving a finn weave project (tough going) that has been on the loom since Easter. Yesterday the weather broke and my mood did … Continue reading →

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Who I Really Am was Not Destroyed by PTSD

Posted on March 20, 2020 by jenny

Just typed this up.  It’s from my journal for February 12.  I’m writing about Grief Group.  One woman, who had been horribly abused in her childhood, told us about a recent dream.  She had dreamed about all the abusive incidents, … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 15, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for August 25, 2019 Dear Guides & Guardians, I really need some help. Dear Jenny, we love you.  Remember the kind Spirit that sat next to you when your heart was stony, and was patient and affectionate.  … Continue reading →

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Why it takes so long to heal early trauma

Posted on March 14, 2020 by jenny

I’ve been reading my journal for last year and came across this piece.  It’s a possible way to understand why sometimes reassurance works right away, and sometimes it takes longer.  One thing I’ve suspected for a long time is that … Continue reading →

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“Announcing your place in the family of things…”

Posted on March 13, 2020 by jenny

I went to the 6th month reunion of Kindred Spirits.  From my journal: Reunion was utterly amazing.  The first night was mostly housekeeping, maybe we sang a song or two to connect.  That night I didn’t sleep at all, and … Continue reading →

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The Demon’s Mirror

Posted on March 5, 2020 by jenny

From my journal: Wednesday, March 4 I’m feeling very sad and very lonely. Grief group was painful. Talked to Erica about how despairing I was feeling about what’s going on in the world.  She was supportive, did not try to … Continue reading →

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Looking at the Past

Posted on February 23, 2020 by jenny

From my journal for July 21, 1975 My friend Michele told me that at a party the other night several people said nice things about me: Brook from tapestry class, Carol from dream class, said i was a very warm … Continue reading →

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“I’ve been working for so long…”

Posted on February 22, 2020 by jenny

Going through my blog for 2017, I came to this post from February 2017.  It’s a journal entry from January 2017.  It pretty well describes what I’m feeling like right now.  The only difference is that I AM in a … Continue reading →

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Defective vs. Wounded

Posted on February 20, 2020 by jenny

Written in my journal on January 20.  I was typing it up today, and saw something I need to remember. Looking back, I see that a week ago Monday (the 13) was a good day.  I woke happy, was able … Continue reading →

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Being Cared For

Posted on February 6, 2020 by jenny

I had been at Kendal since November and this was July – eight months later.  The day before I had had a tooth pulled, and then I fell for a computer scam.  I had to cancel my debit card and … Continue reading →

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