Category Archives: Journal

“Souls are Like Athletes”

Posted on August 19, 2022 by jenny

I’ve been struggling with the low thyroid for a long time.  It’s been slowly getting worse.  I had a fall, and my bowels stopped for quite a long time.  I thought it had to do with the fall, but now … Continue reading →

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Work with Angry Part and Protective Part

Posted on July 25, 2022 by jenny

I found this absolutely fascinating.  I was trying to work with parts, but I didn’t have the help of a therapist who knew about that work, and I didn’t know anything about the Internal Family Systems model yet. From my … Continue reading →

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Trying to Work with my “Enemy”

Posted on July 24, 2022 by jenny

It interests me to go back and read my old journals.  They remind me that I’ve been through an enormous amount of pain, and even managed to heal some of it.  I suffered from the noise phobia for 14 years, … Continue reading →

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My Prayer/Vision

Posted on July 17, 2022 by jenny

In February 2013, I was reintroduced to the importance of making a choice. I wrote: Feeling lonely and bereft of spirit. Recently I was introduced to the idea that faith is not good feelings, faith is a stand you can … Continue reading →

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A Day in the Life…

Posted on July 16, 2022 by jenny

from my journal for Saturday, July 16 I wake up early.  I feel miserable.  I lie there only wanting to go back to sleep, but I can’t.  I take the Thyroxin, bring a glass of water, make a cup of … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Deal with Tiredness

Posted on July 10, 2022 by jenny

from my journal for Tuesday, July 5 I’ve been struggling with the idea that this odd tiredness is a gift of life and I’m supposed to accept it, not fight it, and learn from it.  Oddly, if I think of … Continue reading →

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Guidance from Inner Teacher

Posted on June 12, 2022 by jenny

This surprised me a lot.  But it makes sense.  My uncomfortable feelings this morning were so strange.  I couldn’t figure them out and I’ve never felt this way before.  Here’s what I wrote this morning. 3rd cup. coffee.     … Continue reading →

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Midwifing Neskaya

Posted on May 6, 2022 by jenny

I’ve been going through my journals, finding entries about the building of Neskaya.  I’ve posted two sets: Beginnings of Neskaya, and Steps on the Way to Neskaya.  Since then I read Cynthia Bourgeault’s book, The Wisdom Way of Knowing, and … Continue reading →

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Real Life is Bigger than Happiness

Posted on April 27, 2022 by jenny

From Ritual Year, written in May of 1993 May 13    Real life is bigger than happiness I was visited by an odd image which seemed to express my current state of soul:  The body of a woman lying in … Continue reading →

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“Blazing and Storm-shattered Maples”

Posted on April 25, 2022 by jenny

Going back to what I wrote in June 1996, I saw the phrase “blazing and storm-shattered maples” and it reminded me of what I had written at that time. It was a powerful writing and a powerful learning that I … Continue reading →

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