Category Archives: Journal

1995: Vision for a World Where I Can Live

Posted on August 16, 2023 by jenny

From my journal for August 1995.  I had gone to Dance Camp, but I was limited in what I could eat because I had systemic yeast.  No bread, no wheat, no sugar, etc.  The cook at camp was not sympathetic … Continue reading →

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1976: “Feel Good About Myself”

Posted on August 13, 2023 by jenny

It’s both interesting and painful to read this. At that time I failed to connect my fear about sharing my enthusiasm with Mother’s frequent remark “Don’t think you’re so great.” But that’s what did it. I suppose feeling good about … Continue reading →

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1995: “The Whole Thing”

Posted on July 30, 2023 by jenny

SUNDAY, JULY 30, 1995    Sometime in the early ’90s I followed the program described in Julia Cameron’s book The Artist’s Way. “Morning pages” is one of the exercises in Julia Cameron’s program. Nika is the Artist part of me, I … Continue reading →

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1995: Journey Into Courage Video and Fear about Mom

Posted on July 29, 2023 by jenny

After the first showing of the movie about Journey Into Courage, I realized that my siblings’ names were listed among the contributors to making the video.  I worried about mother finding out.  At this point I still didn’t know about … Continue reading →

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1995: Glider Hatred

Posted on July 27, 2023 by jenny

During the years from 1984 to 1997 I suffered from the noise of small planes from a nearby airport. The worst were the ones that towed the gliders because it went on so long. I wrote this in my journal … Continue reading →

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1995: Art as Medicine

Posted on July 26, 2023 by jenny

Back in 1995, I did a couple of retreats with Shaun McNiff, who wrote the book Art as Medicine.  I don’t remember the instructions, I think the painting process was very improvisational. From my journal for June 1995: FRIDAY JUNE … Continue reading →

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Dialogue with a Part

Posted on July 16, 2023 by jenny

Written in writing group on June 26.  I was feeling very scared and worrying about Mocha’s illness.  I thought I would try talking to a part who was scared. I just want to cry.  My teeth have been chattering all … Continue reading →

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A New Look at the “Voice from the Past”

Posted on July 3, 2023 by jenny

Found a passage written in June of ‘96, when I was in the pit of despair & trying to find things to help me hold on.  I posted it in May 2010.  I’ve since posted pieces of it with commentary … Continue reading →

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From 1994-5: Numerology

Posted on June 25, 2023 by jenny

from my journal for December 1994 I’ve been wanting to write about the information in the Numerology books — recommended by a friend, I ordered them for Dana and wrapped them for Christmas.  Looking them over, I see that Numerology … Continue reading →

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Trying to “Surrender” Doesn’t Work

Posted on June 23, 2023 by jenny

This should have been posted right after my description of following Tosha Silver’s process, which I called The Real Universe. But I didn’t know what to say after saying that my attempts were “horribly unsuccessful.” Then I got distracted by … Continue reading →

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