Category Archives: Depression

Guidance

Posted on October 19, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2007) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling a little bit lost. I feel like I’ve been soldiering on through depression and headache, and today I feel enough better to what? try to do some “real” living … Continue reading →

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“Should” and Compassion

Posted on October 17, 2010 by jenny

Reading from my journal from June 2010 I see how I create misery for myself by a convoluted and distorted thinking process, and my inability to trust my own goodness. My heart just went out to me, lots of compassion … Continue reading →

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Struggle with “Should”

Posted on October 15, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2010) Didn’t even have energy to write so I crawled back in bed. Had one wave of fear but I met it with acceptance and compassion and it faded. I think I did sleep for a while. … Continue reading →

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Meditation & Depression

Posted on October 13, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2010) While driving I listened to “The Mindful Way through Depression.” He was talking about meditation and pointed out that there was no goal and no ‘right’ way to meditate. The point is the practice of knowing … Continue reading →

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Three Things

Posted on October 7, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2010) When I got to Karen yesterday, I just cried. I said I was confused and discouraged and didn’t know what to do, had no way to know which technique was working to help me out of … Continue reading →

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Acceptance

Posted on October 6, 2010 by jenny

(Written in May 2008) Started yesterday with a headache. I met Pat as I left Neskaya and she said she had a headache too and thought it was pollen. O yes pollen, that makes sense. That allowed me to accept … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on September 20, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2010) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling pretty blue.  I don’t see any reason to keep going.  I’m tired of pulling against depression like a heavy weight.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you very … Continue reading →

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No Firm Foundation

Posted on September 12, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2007) I’m feeling precarious, a bit lost, a little scared, a little discouraged.  I feel like there is no firm foundation under me.  I try to let my weight down solidly on the couch, to let the … Continue reading →

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Pain in my Heart

Posted on September 10, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2007) This pain in my heart — is it resistance to life when life wants to break in and?  what? Yesterday I tried to investigate it, be curious about it, and it did seem to keep changing.  … Continue reading →

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Sadness & Guidance

Posted on September 9, 2010 by jenny

I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve been really struggling with depression.  This was written in July 2010: Well, I really am feeling sad.  It may be partly that nobody’s here.  I enjoyed waking up at my brother’s house … Continue reading →

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